Interaptus

Interaptus

It was a cold morning day,

And was my first day back at school.

Dropped in new surrounding,

I knew not what to do.

I walked into my first class,

Staring down at my shoes.

I looked up for a moment,

And there...I saw you

For the very first time,

I saw your beautiful face.

I hushed down my ideas of love,

Sitting down, out of place

Something felt different though,

As if I suddenly lived and died,

I couldn't keep my mind off you,

No matter how hard I tried.

The teacher began the class,

But I hardly even listened.

All I could think about,

Is when I'd see you again

The hour passed slowly by,

And the bell sounded for me to leave.

But you came up to meet me.

An event I could hardly believe.

Your soft voice welcomed me,

Saying to make this place my home.

You told me if I ever needed a friend,

You'd make sure I wasn't alone

Then you turned and walked away,

With a beautiful laugh and grin.

I simply could not wait,

Until I would see you again.

The school day passed by,

And I went to tuck myself into bed.

But my mind wouldn't let go,

Constantly pondering what you had said.

I could feel you deep down,

A feeling I had never felt before.

I could hardly even contain it,

With it bursting at my heart's door.

When I finally did fall asleep,

You then captured my very dreams.

What must have been love at first sight,

You were all I could think of, or so it seemed.

A few days went past,

A week, a month and then a year.

Your presence never left my mind,

You were the one for me, that much was clear

Although you and I were close,

You seemed leagues beyond my range.

You were perfection personified.

With nothing I would change.

However, I began to think...why not?

If I ask you out, and you say no,

Then nothing would really change,

But if I never ask, I never know.

The answer to an unasked question,

Or so I recited to myself each night,

Is an answer that is always a no,

So I decided to ask you, despite my fright.

I walked straight up to you,

With a false sense of confidence.

I told you just how I felt,

With no regard of the consequence

Once I finished, you stared at me silently,

I slowly started to turn red,

When you spoke out loud,

With a resounding, glorious yes!

A smile I could not hold back,

Began to etch itself on my face.

Finally the one I adored,

I would be able to embrace.

The next coming weekend was our date,

Set in stone by eagerness and anxiety

I thought I was the only one excited.

But seeing your face...it wasn't just me

I came up to your front door,

Gave it a hard knock and waited.

Up came your father, glaring down at me

And all my excitement soon abated.

High above he towered over,

With you beautifully hiding behind him.

Then you walked out in front and said,

“Bye daddy. I'll be back by 10.”

I took you by the hand and a sigh of relief.

As I walked you over to the car.

“You look beautiful,” I said,

“You're perfect...just the way you are.”

I drove us to our destination,

The beginning of the life we'd create,

The entire time went abundantly well,

Us meeting? Must be fate.

When we both had finished,

And all was said and done,

I drove you back to your home,

Just before 9:51

About a week or two passed,

And I grew eager for another adventure.

Each moment I didn't see you,

Was nothing but emotional torture.

I called you up on the phone,

But you answered only in tears.

I asked if you were all right,

Then your mourning became clear

Your mother had just passed away,

The one woman you were close to,

Now gone before your very eyes...

And there was nothing you nor I could do

I did my best to console you,

To lifted your fallen chin a bit higher,

But each attempt resulted the same,

With you crying all the louder.

I continued to try and comfort you,

Throughout the next few weeks.

Eventually you came to terms with it,

That there was still hope, no matter how bleak.

I tried to show you the stars,

How they shined with such glory,

And how no matter life's struggle,

They'd still hold the same beauty

I showed you the moon,

How no matter how dark the night became,

It would still reflect the sun's beauty,

And that life would remain the same

You turned to me and hugged me,

Giving me a kiss on the cheek

You thanked me for all I had done,

Throughout the last couple weeks.

Soon you and I were ready to graduate,

It appeared the years just passed us by.

It was but months away,

And time was on the brink, ready to fly

I remember that day,

In all the torment that it wrought.

Only a few months to go,

But he pulled you out, without second thought.

Your father, still traumatized by the death,

Decided that the one last woman in his world,

I just was not good enough for.

So there I stood alone...denied.

He said I wasn't tall, strong or smart enough,

Not good enough for the daughter he loved.

You tried to tell him otherwise,

But rejected the premise, as his was above

I remember seeing you pack your things,

With a held back tears and hate,

Just months from being free,

But we were both a bit too late.

I stood there in the road,

Watching the truck take you away,

I broke down in tears,

Our journey together, our last day

That night I looked up to the stars,

Still shining as bright as they did before,

But I couldn't appreciate their beauty,

They didn't mean anything any more

I looked up for the moon,

But it was nowhere to be seen.

The night I needed its light the most,

The reflection refused to intervene

Years went on passed,

But I couldn't manage to move on,

Every time I saw a happy couple,

I could only ever think of you.

I wondered where you were,

If you were happy in your new home.

I wondered if I was still your love,

If I remained you one last hope.

College came and went by,

I got a purposeless degree in a life,

As meaningless as anything else.

I felt like I may as well die

It appeared as if love rejected me,

As if the the emotion was offended,

By my inability to accept my loss,

And how abruptly it all ended.

In truth, love did not reject me.

I turned my back on its embrace.

Love and I became bitter enemies,

The moment I couldn't see your face

But time heals all wounds,

Or so they say, to remedy our soul,

Eventually I pressed on with love,

I found someone I loved, I reached my 'goal'

Somehow the relationship felt almost empty,

I felt some pull towards her, but nothing like you.

She made me feel accepted,

But you...you made me feel brand new

Twenty years from the day we parted,

I was sitting at a desk at my work.

Finally the clock rolled through,

So off to my home I'd return.

As I walked out to my apartment,

I heard a laugh oh too familiar.

I turned around in a flash,

Hoping I'd see you here

You were nowhere to be found,

So I turned back and walked further on,

But there it was again, the laugh,

The world's most precious song

There I stood on the sidewalk,

Staring around for a hope of a dead dream.

But there around the corner...there you were,

With a smile shining like a beam

I could not contain myself,

As my walk turned into a run,

I didn't want to stop this adventure.

I simply knew you were still the one.

Off in the distance, you noticed me.

You dropped your drink in amazement,

And started running to me, the same.

There we stood together, again.

For an hour we stood there quietly,

Staring into each other's eyes,

Simply watching our years,

After all this time, and our forced goodbye

I broke the first sentence,

Asking how you have been all these years.

I wanted to know every detail,

All your loves, hopes, and fears

You told me you had tried to find someone,

And had even found a food good men,

But you simply didn't love them...

So you had to make it end.

After you told me the times of your life,

We went out for a walk at night.

You asked me how I had been,

But all I wanted to say was...all right.

You asked me for more detail,

And I could not simply refuse.

I told you how I felt tired and restless,

And that my life was of no use.

I saw your face lose its shade,

As you became a very pale.

You saw that the love for others had died,

I felt as if though I had failed.

Then you took me by the hand,

And pointed up into the night sky,

You told me how life would still go on,

Just take it from the night.

You showed me the stars,

How they shined with such glory,

And how no matter life's struggle,

They'd still hold the same beauty

You then showed me the moon,

How no matter how dark the night became,

It would still reflect the sun's beauty,

And that life would still remain.

Author's Note

The title Interaptus is latin for joined together. I thought it fit :P