In Memoriam

Friday, March 1^st, 2002

The first day we met,

You said and waved hello,

And at first sight, I just knew

Two days went past,

And we saw each other again,

It was fate, the lining of the stars,

That you and I, we would last

You walked up to me,

As I was to shy to do the same,

You said hello and shook my hand

I asked you out, to see if you and I could be

You said you would go,

And I jumped for joy inside,

I asked about this coming weekend,

And you said you'd let me know

I called to confirm out meet,

And you said tomorrow would be good,

I hung up the phone to prepare,

Feeling accomplished in my lover's feat

I fell tired, and went to bed,

Woke up the next day,

Dressed up in Sunday's best,

You looked beautiful as well, I said

We drove to our dinner,

Looked up to each other,

Staring quietly into each other's eyes,

And I swear, I saw a glimmer

Once we finished and I payed,

You and I walked out to a movie,

I then took you home,

And asked if you had a nice day

You said it was fun,

Gave me a hug coupled with a grin,

Walked into your apartment,

Signaling for the night, we were done

Sunday, March 3^rd, 2002

Two days passed by,

With me restraining not to call,

What to do? I had not a clue

Finally the time grew near

So I picked up my phone,

And punched in your number,

Then paused with aching fear

The past two days I waited,

Anxiously and eagerly I stood,

Then when the moment finally came,

I stood silent in fear, confidence vacated

I stared at my phone for hours,

For what seemed like days,

Were only minutes scrolling past,

What am I? A coward.

Finally, gaining the backbone,

I grabbed the phone and hit call,

I waited for your voice to answer

But only ever heard the tone

On the last ring of the call,

You answered and said, “Hello?”

I said, “Hey, it's me.”

And said no more, that was all.

I realized I wasn't clear,

So I mentioned my name,

You replied in excitement,

Destroying any remaining fear

I asked you out again,

But before I could finish asking,

You gave a delightful YES!

Everything was going exactly to plan.

The date went like the last,

Perfect and joyful as could be,

I dropped you off at your home,

Our first moments, I would never pass

A month passed, then a year

Time went by so fast,

But with you, it went slow

Our memories, beautiful tears

Tuesday, April 8^th, 2003

I sat at my desk thinking,

Writing a poem for you,

A present for our year anniversary

It didn't amount to much, I know,

But it was from my heart,

And thats all that would matter.

Here it is, as follows:

“Your brown hair flows down,

Cascading like a river,

And just around the corner,

Are your deep brown eyes.

A face as smooth as alabaster,

And a tone, precious as the star,

But I love much more who you are,

Than the beauty I see each day

You're kind in midst of anger,

Forgiving, even when in pain,

A love so great, I cannot contain,

You truly are too perfect to be real

Every moment we are together,

I feel blessed beyond compare,

I love you more than I can bear,

And I want to be with you, forever”

I closed down the computer,

And headed to your place,

You let me me in with a hug and kiss,

A glimpse to our perfect future

I handed you my letter,

You steeped back and held a tear,

Then the floodgates opened,

You jumped in my arms and said, “You remembered.”

Saturday, June 19^th, 2004

I took you to the beach.

While we were lying on the sand,

I told you I loved you, the one I adore

I stood up, and took you by the hand,

Knelt down on my right knee

And asked your hand in marriage,

Kneeling down in the sand

Your eyes instantly shined,

Holding back tears of joy,

With a smile brighter than the sun,

And you said yes, you were mine

I got off my knee, slipping on the ring,

I gave you a kiss and danced inside.

Finally we would be together forever,

Bound by a love, everlasting

Sunday, October 2^nd, 2005

I stood at the front of the altar,

Waiting for you to come down the aisle,

For us to pledge to our new life

The doors opened wide,

With you glowing dressed in white.

Beautified head-to-toe, perfect

And there you went, to my side

The entire church went silent,

As I stared deeply into your eyes,

We both said I do and goodbye

And off on our honeymoon we went

Tuesday, July 17^th, 2007

The day our first child came to life,

After nine months of anticipation,

We held our little piece of heaven

A small, precious little creation,

You were kept under watch

To make sure you would be safe

But the unspeakable happened.

The child we cherished and loved,

Joined the saints in the stars that night,

Our love couldn't save his defected heart,

Why did this happen, oh God above?

Her face looked shattered and pale,

From the loss we both sustained,

But it hit her more than me,

I tried to help, but to no avail

Wednesday, October 24^th, 2007

To the hospital we both went.

The doctor came in, file in hand

But we left with only depression

You were diagnosed with terminal cancer,

One with no hope of a resolution,

All we could do is hope and pray,

Pray there might ever be an answer

Each month that passed by,

I saw you start to fade more.

Near the end of it all,

It was as if there was no life

Saturday, March 1^st, 2008

I took you by the hand.

Six years from when we first met,

Would be our final day

In the hospital bed you lay,

Holding my hand tightly,

Telling me you loved me,

And that you were so afraid

I told you everything would be just fine

And that I loved you more than life,

I gave you a kiss on the cheek,

And then I heard you flatline

All I could do was sit and cry,

I couldn't speak, I was silent.

Holding the still warm hand,

Of my now deceased wife

Now the stars don't seem to shine,

They are but shades of their former selves,

Thy don't dance with the same fervency,

Ever since the night you died

Saturday, March 1^st, 2014

I am sitting at my desk.

Six years since your final breath,

I am staring at a pain filled screen

Here lies your memory,

And our lives together.

Describing the love we shared,

Your personality, perfection, and beauty.