There
are not many beautiful things in this world than revisiting your old memories.
This is the story of one such memory which was lost in the mist of the hectic schedule until one day I revisited it again.
Early
leave from office provided me time to fulfill my mother’s wish to clean up the
mess on my book shelf. Telling a boy to clean up the bookshelf is one daunting
task but mothers are expert in it.
Suddenly
my eyes lit up when I saw the diary which I was searching for so long. It held
some of the most precious memories of my life till the time I stopped writing
those moments.
My
eyes lightened up like those of a kid who just got his favorite candy. I smiled
while turning through the pages which contained the story of my first crush…
the charm when I got the highest grades in the class…. those old and precious
memories!!!
Suddenly
a paper flew out of it. I looked at it flowing away with my eyes wide open till
the time I could gather myself and put everything aside to catch that piece of
memory.
Ah! That
was one of my most precious treasures.
It was
the first letter that I wrote…..The letter that never reached its address.
Tears
came out of my eyes as I opened it….
Those
were the days when phones were still a luxury which only few could afford. The
year of 1999. We had just been told how to write letters in school and this was
when I had written my first and the only letter, the letter that never reached
its address.
The letter was still lying between the pages as
a part of my most precious memory. The memory of my best friend; my grandfather.
It was in the dusky lanes of a crowded city of Punjab, Bathinda where I took my
little steps holding his strong fingers.
My every wish used to be fulfilled because the
king of our house was my best friend. I would just put my demand and he would
make sure that it gets fulfilled. But somehow my relation with him was more
than that, his presence made sure that I was the most important part of the
joint family.
I opened that letter;
Dear Bauji,
I am missing you. I want to come there but
Mumma says that it will be possible only after the exam. I miss those walks to
the Quila with you where you would tell me about the various stories attached
to it. They all are fresh in my mind. Unlike others you never told me about those
destruction stories of the city going around that some saint said that if the
water touches the temple near Quila the whole city will destroy. The city had a
curse they said. May be you never wanted me to fear anything. I just hope that
my city is fine. I miss our house, the neem tree where papa and chachu would
pick nimonis and red ones were given to me as they tasted better and were good
for health too. Talking about health, I want to know if you are well because
Chachu told me that you weren't and was remembering me. Papa and Mumma promised
him that we will be there as soon as my exam finish. I wish I could reach there
before this letter reaches you. Don't worry I will soon be there and we will
have that best mango shake from the goll diggi market. Hope I will reach before
this letter and be with you soon. Missing you.
Your grandson,
Anurag
It was when the call came that he was very
serious and we had to rush there. He was taking his last breaths when I saw
him. It was very difficult for him to utter a single word but he smiled when he
saw me. I came close to his bed. They said he had very little time. Those few
hours I just sat by his side and he kept his hand on my head. The strong hand
had become fragile now. I took a nap keeping my head on his bed. I wanted the
time to stop there only.
Next day I had another exam so I had to leave to
take that exam with a promise that I would again soon. I touched his feet, he
opened his eyes and smiled and somehow managed to utter "Jaldi aana"
and he went to sleep. Calmness on his face was visible. Even he had surrendered
his fate to the destiny. The king of my empire was about to leave his throne.
I never wanted to leave him. My eyes kept
looking at him as I took walk back home.
As soon as I took my last exam I had the news of
his demise. My best friend was gone. The letter never reached him. His last
words still roam in my ears.
I closed that letter, the most precious letter
which never reached my best friend. I wish that letter had reached him. I wish
I were able to utter few words before he closed his eyes. I wish I could save
him. I wish he was still there.
I miss you Grand Pa....and I wish to see you
once again in other world some day. I know every world will be beautiful till
you are with me. This world looks empty without you. Please come back ...tell
the God that someone is missing you very badly on the earth. I want to be a
little kid again and want to visit that city, the market, the Quila holding
your hands. I want to hear those stories again. I want to talk to you. Life has
moved on Grand Pa...I have grown up, but somewhere in the heart
the vacuum you created has not been fulfilled and will never be. Life
will never be as beautiful as it used to be when you were around. Please come
back...........
Some stories you never want to end because they
are devoid of a happy ending but may be in some other world, in other life the
end is there.