《 I HATE MYSELF FOR THAT 》

Its just me hating me own self..

I know you are the wrong person.. and i already assume it. But i can't get you out of my head.. and i hate myself for that .
I hate myself when i wake up in the morning hoping for a better life without you.. a life where i feel free again, a life where i feel happy .. exactly where i feel myself again . I hate myself when i already know you adore torturing me , i really hate myself when knowing this and still can't get you out of my mind .
Every day i promise myself not talking to you, but i can't, i mean the fact that im no longer present in your life..the fact that you will forget me..would break me down . And i hate myself when i can't resist feeling you fade away , i hate myself more when i go back running to your soft warm arms.
The crazy part is.. you always welcome me .. we both know.. you don't even have a heart to feel my love .. so how could you ever love me ?
I hate myself for crawling back to you, i hate myself for breaking up my rules for you , i hate myself for giving you all of me.
You are a bad person a really bad one.. and i hate myself for knowing this and still loving you .
No i adore you.. i crave you.. i adore your smile.. i adore your black eyes.. i adore your laugh.. your voice..your hands.. everything.. every part of you.
I really want to stop writing about you but i can't.. how could i ever stop writing about the only person who made me write love stories?
I hate myself ..i hate myself .. i hate myself.
My love i couldn't hate you, so i started hating me.