A Song of Sadness

You feel so hurt that you can't move anymore. The pain has taken control of your body. Love is that pain.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm usually stronger than this. I usually smile. Now I can't bare a grin. It hurts too much to smile. I close my eyes. I dream of angels singing and dancing, calling me home. This planet is no home. It's an exquisite form of self destruction that I can no longer take. The music doesn't even drown out the demons anymore. Now all the demons sing along in harmony. My brain is wanting to shut down, but my heart can't just stop. It seeks for love. It seeks for him. My heart has found a boy. A boy that does so much for me, yet there are issues. Instead of two of us dancing, there are three: two girls, one boy. My heart wants to continue on loving him, but my brain doesn't even love itself. My mind is going crazy. I'm filled with such jealousy and hurt, I can barely stand. I want to dream of those angels, but instead, I'm down here singing with the demons in harmony.