Midnight Blues

If you want to start a journey, you have to take the first step.

The clock has struck midnight 

Cinderella has fled the scene

The moon's shadows begin to dance

While the children softly dream

However, I am wide awake

Shivering in the brisk midnight air

Just sitting there and wondering 

If anyone would care

It's not that these are new

These thoughts up in my head

I just can never stop the thinking

That I'd be better off dead

I try the usual methods 

of talking myself through

Banish the negative ideas

Think of mom and you

I don't let myself out of bed

I know what would happen if I did

Long sleeves and sweatshirts in warmer weather

Fresh, new scars begging to be hid

I put my headphones over my ears

In an effort to drown out my brain

Dealing with my midnight blues

Desperately trying to refrain

As I'm drifting off to sleep

I can't help but feel I've won

While it's only a small baby step

I know that it's the first one