Wishing - Minus The Candles

July 17th.....I am 18 - but i've been an adult for an awfully long time...

I stumbled my way
To my eighteenth birthday.

It started with my fourteenth year,
A drawing pad - friends - and a bag of fear.

Number fifteen hit me hard,
Hallucinogens - alcohol - and the druggy card.

Sweet sixteen snuck up on me,
Abuse - lies - and the longing to be free.

My golden day of seventeen,
Was full of broken promises and endless nicotine.

But chapter eighteen's made it's way around
Just in time -
Looky what I found.

Sober me -
Laughing JUST as hard,
And flying JUST as free.

This year I may be alone most of the day,
But you know what, that's okay.

Because I found my sXe fix,
And the one that's going to help me through this mix.

You can't buy respect,
With cash or paycheck.

You can't win loyalty
With forgotten things you've promised me.

And you can't force love,
No matter how much you push and shove.

What I want this year, you can't put a price on,
I just don't want anything new to go wrong.

Material items are nice for a while,
But I'd much rather wake to a familiar smile.
 

Author's Note

sXe means Straight Edge

I'm working on reaching that goal.
y mi amor es going to help me with that one.

Reviews

[Dark Daughters]

This was a wonderful and inspirational poem, I too can relate to a lot of the earlier drama trauma. Great work
~Darkness MacBeth

[bailish]

Sounds like you've found your point of stability in this world. Congratulations.