I'd Cry..... But I Just Can't

It hurts;
It's harder than you'd realize
To see your face again.
When you left, for some reason, I wasn't really surprised
But then again I was in so much pain,
Were we pretend?

I truly need to know
But I'm not so sure I want to.
Have you finally let go?
Have I
(for the last time)
Lost you???

Have you pushed us aside for the last time
Has all of my love gone to waste?
Have I lost all that was mine
Is that regret I taste?

I wish I could say I miss you
Wish I could miss your skin.
But somewhere deep inside of me,
It's hard enough to speak what's true.
It's difficult to admit a sin.
Yours especially.

I trusted your words, did you know that much?
I feel the aching pain, but I haven't the tears to cry.
I even believed in what you said, I adored your touch
But you know something now?
I'm done with what seems to be a lie.

Yes,
I want to scream in the middle of the night.
Yes,
I want to cry a thousand tears, maybe rid of this heart-ache.
No,
I no longer think we were truly right.
No,
You're wrong, I did feel my heart break.

For so long I cried because I couldn't be there with you.
For so long I dedicated myself to your ever-loving heart.
Now I don't know WHAT to do.
And you should tell me what's going on,
If you don't know quite where to start.

I'll give you this one helping hand,
If only you'll start talking.
Here's hoping you'll make me understand,
Because otherwise,
I suppose you'll be watching
As away I will be walking.

.I wish I could say I didn't regret the tears.

Reviews

[Shadow]

I cried cause of this poem...Me and my friend are in a fight...I miss him though but this poem made me feel a little better. Great job keep up the good work.

[Egan]

I love this. In the past i have felt this way. You really hit the emotions perfectly.
This was very well written. Great job!