Un[Limited]

Is it possible to miss you, but be better alone?

You don’t hurt me, but who I am with you isn’t me

The me you see is too hard to be

When I’m alone I can be my own self

No expectations or limitations

My boundaries are non-existent

 

I love you, but your arms are my cage

Captivation brings out from me a rage

I don’t recognize it, and that scares me

But as I travel the depths of my self

I’m confronted by terrifying truths

They force me to name them

To look into their eyes

Only to realize they’re mine

 

It makes me want to run

Back to your arms and the safety of what is known

The familiar pain is better than the stranger

But here, I am limited

And I’m shaking the bars of this prison again

 

Would you let me go if you knew this?

Or would you tighten your grip?

I can’t be safe and be me

So I’m forced to make the choice

To hold your hand and be content with the cage,

Or to let you go and face the unseen obstacles?

 

Today I’m leaving you behind to continue the struggle

To find the truth in the darkness

To claim it as my own

I need to find the faith I have in you in myself

If I find this safety in me

Then there are no limitations to who I can be