Questions With No Answers

Small town boys and small town girls

At their weddings they dance and twirl

Bride and groom, man and wife

Just beginning the course of their lives

Was that in your mind when we first started?

 

All the while, something was amiss,

Did you know?

My reluctance to give you that kiss,

Did you know?

 

Did I know the truth while lying next to you?

To lie without words, that’s what we do

 

But we were just a boy and a girl,

Doing the expected dances and twirls

Were we living out the truth in their eyes?

Unable to accept my imperfections, content with lies

But was I?

 

What was worse, my lies to you or to myself?

Letting my heart collect dust on the shelf

Because it was not with you, and not with me

 

Did I know? Of course I did

But for once, Pandora’s Box kept its lid

Is it a lie to say it was you I was shielding,

From all the pain and shame the truth was wielding?

Or was it me? Always me and my insecurity

 

But how could we know what was wrong?

Living out our lives like a love song

 

No one but each other to hold our hands

You were my guide, and I was yours

As we explored the foreign lands

Of our hearts and a desire that lures

 

What drew me away, truth or lust?

What’s more important, faith or trust?

 

Could either of us have guessed,

That this love could become so tense?

But that must be the consequence

When the haze of unanswered questions becomes so dense

 

For so long we honestly walked a path of lies

Until a desire path averted my eyes

Did you not feel me let go of your hand,

And leave you alone in that unknown land?

 

Oh, what a mess I made

Discovering I was willing to trade

The lies of a simple life,

For a truthful one full of strife

For what is my worth, if I am dishonest?

 

You stayed on the course, and I chose mine,

And no longer do they intertwine

 

I have faith that this was for the best

And I trust that fate will decide the rest

 

As I walk away from us, I look back at you fondly

But questions with no answers will continue to haunt me