Nothing

Hey we only get this one chance to dream and let em sweetly dance inside our mind. So fight real and right, for that inner person...Who needs you to love and embrace them, in just this very way!

 

I cannot start giving up on,

never seeing another daydream.

 

I have just started to believe,

  this isn't conceivable, anymore.

 

For a long time now, this old blank-

vision was the biggest fear I had.

 

Because that certainly pointed me,

toward bigger and worse let downs.

 

Where I had so many desire's that,

  I'd never go to such a place again.

 

Inside that one empty part of my life,

  where I'd never allow another dream.

 

Nor let one more silly thought sing,

  Or let songs dance across my mind.

 

For I needed to stay aware and alert,

  and be prepared of going to war.

 

 Fending off anyone attempting,

a shot of getting nearly as close.

 

As to pry and snoop by entering,

in much needed personal space.

 

That long ago was misplaced,

hidden and stowed, only for me.

 

I knew that was the safest of my-

 bets and the thing to do back then.

 

No-one ever got to know me,

and I had never been missed to.

 

But can't you see all these ugly,

truths revealed inside of myself ?

 

That very long ago I let loneliness,

became my best and only friend.

 

For secretly I always hated myself,

for running the other, wrong way.

 

 For truth couldn't or would never,

  hurt as bad or ruin this one chance!

 

I spent too many days trying my best,

to count how log ago I had escaped.

 

I  cannot ever turn myself back,

to return this lost time I've found.

 

So now I'll have to give this life...

the best chance to live that i can. 

 

Knowing I could've been any number,

  of so many somethings never lost.

 

Rather than let fear out run my power,

the one right to, a precious time in life.

 

So now I become this mere something...

 That tells how bad...Nothing really feels! 

Author's Note

Give me adive so I can make this an awesome write ,please thanks, hugs from AnnaMaria