A Complicated Package

Can you see the pain in my eyes?
You must have noticed by now .
Can you see the relief in my smile or in my touch?
Precious moments locked away forever in the depths of our hearts .
Never to be seen again.
I wish I could take your hand and let you wash away the hurt and scars that plague my mind and soul.
But this relief once sought would reap more pain.
Not for me but for others.
You and I are alike in that we cannot hurt another .
Big hearts we wear on our sleeves easily filled but easily shattered .
I know even in this weakened state that there is only One who can take away this pain.
One to put my trust in.
One to lean on.
One who has never and will never let me down.
It's easy to forget in this wicked world of ours .
The soundness of my mind creaks and splits until I don't know up from down.
But I know that if I am loyal to Him, He will make it okay.
And our hearts will be mended.
So even if my heart must break for others to be spared,
I must resign myself that this is something I must bear.