Making Peace With Her Past

Here's expressing what she learned from her previous relationship and how she has moved on gracefully.

So here we embark on her journey

That started in her sweet or foolish seventeen's

Met a person with whom she laughed, talked, smiled, was happy all the time she met him

But the days he is absent

She missed him- like hell

She made it a point to get connected with him no matter what or where he was

This made her feel safe and secure

There were many ups and downs as in every other relationship

First, she choose to compromise

But then as her nature was

Spoke all her heart out whenever she found something offensive

And she never noticed the hurt she caused to his ego

In the process, of her true natural behavior

He never choose to let her know what he felt

He never made her understand or guide her to improve

Then came the day- those vivid memories she still remembers now

He told her I am gonna marry a pretty girl and a more hearty person than you

She felt a crack, a bruise in those words

She started pitying herself

But her mind replayed a few memories of their togetherness

She could sense their relation did never brought those genuine smile and happiness on his face

That she saw not once or twice but thrice

When she gifted him a pretty wrist watch since he never arrived on time to meet her

She had known he never wore one and so took efforts

The other occasion 

His happiness and smile so appealing while talking to his dear mom 

And then the other time she visited him at the worst of his time with some healthy fruits she bought for him

Her eyes were wet on that rainy day

Her soul screamed to stay calm and think

What have you done to the person you love

That he decided to leave you alone

Her mind rewind and replay the whole story

Her soul made her understand to 

Let him go

There's no use to plead a person whom you love to stay

For if he had loved you truly and with his complete heart

He would have made efforts to express himself freely

His happiness and beaming smile were rarely a sight when he was with her

She reminded herself

She had never seen him laughing aloud and smiling so genuinely while they had watched together a comedy flick

Her soul again demanded her 

Let him go

Let him have his happiness

Maybe he could be happier without her

The same happiness she wished he could have had been when they were together

She stopped pleading and promised herself 

Never to meet him again

For his own goodness and happiness.

Though it hurt her a lot

She assembled all the shattered pieces of her heart one by one

Wished him best for his married life

And forced herself a smile to bade him goodbye

But her tears didn't commit with her efforts to show her strength of letting go

For that was the most precious moment of her life

When the best pair in the world- Smile and Cry who never meet at all the time

Had met each other at that very moment

She embraced herself and embarked on a journey unknown

Making peace with her past

Reminding herself every time that

It is now time to be happy again

The same as she used to before ...

Author's Note

This is an idea clicked to me at the instant of 4 a.m with a sudden abrupt waking up in a winter morning. Leaving you with one of my favorite song:

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Hardest and greatest wisdom learn. To release someone we love. Braking your own heard is difficult. I liked the honest words and thoughts in the story. Good song and thank you dear Poet for sharing the amazing story.
Coyote

[Anjali]

Thank you Coyote for your reviews. I appreciate it :)

[Coyote Poetry]

Was my pleasure and you are welcome.

[Swetha]

Such a beautiful one, totally relatable...

[Anjali]

Thank you Swetha :)

[HC Abiona]

very beautiful and relatable

[Anjali]

Thank you Abiona :)

[Mira]

This is very well written! You have portrayed this relationship so beautifully, and it taught me that even toxic/bad relationships have a lot to teach you.
Good job, I really liked it.
Thanks for posting,
Mira.

[Anjali]

Thank you Mira for those encouraging words! :)

[Mira]

No problem, would appreciate it if you could return the favour sometime :)