Nagative

My gums

     bleed

 

My hands

     scared

 

My knees

     shake

 

My heart

     is hard

 

I do not need this smile

     Nor do I need your care

          I didn't ask to live this way

               I never asked to exist here

 

Why does my mind go blank

     I don't remember dies...

          I think

 

What do I do when I am not me?

     Am I a killer

          A murder

               Wouldn't suprise me

 

I always have these nightmeres

     They wake me in my sleep

          I tell you what I get pitty

               And I my punch you in your lips

 

Coming to terms...

     Coming to life...

          That is what I am

               Just another person

                    Another life

 

I cannot cry no longer...

     My emotions are dry

          I am the purest nagative

               Nothing will be alright

Reviews

[What happened to simple..]

Hmm, we all think it over, again and again, why are we here and that we don't want to be, other than ways out the best way to go is to take it as it is... just another person, another life sure, hope you don't believe that... I know I do, not about others though, if that makes sense. Good writing =) cheers

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OMG! xD You know... There is a part of me that really loves the way your words stair stepped down the page. Like flights of stairs where each floor brings one closer to their own personal hell.
Then there is the other part of me that's smiling, thinking that this is cool! =)

Kisses! - Ash

[The True Angel Of Sin]

Thank you, but the bleeding gums was a metaphor I think. I don't really give a damn about those terms. I have sen professionals. I think that are all quakes. tell me the same thing over and over. give me pills that are suppose to fix me. I don't want to be changed like that... That is the easy way out. Anyone who allows himself to be controlled by medication deserves to be the way they are.

[Workingonit!!]

Wow.. this is a dark and very negative outpouring. Sometimes we all feel like a number and well I don't relate to everything here.. there are times where I have cried to being numb silently and the nightmares are dreadful. My gums don't bleed but I sure wasn't blessed with great teeth (had 8 or 9 dental surgeries lost count and you won't know it to see them so I definitely know that pain.. lol.. but not really funny).

Finding the will to be more than a number is sometimes hard.. releasing is important though and if this is real maybe seeing a professional? That's what I am doing and I'm not ashamed there are medical conditions in my family.. and well I want to make the most of life in a positive way. I loved the format and the bravery to put such intense emotions in write.. hope you find your way!