Ashes to Ashes..funk to funky.. we know Major Tom's a Junkie strung out in heaven's high reaching an all time LOW....David Bowie
At times like this you think deep.
I know this is not the most profound thing you will ever hear out of the mouth of a dying Junkie.. We junkies have been known to pontificate.
My Name is Tom and I'm in my last year of an extended suicide attempt.. Which means if someone don't raise from these ashes like a friggin Phoenix then that someone being yours truly will no doubt cease to be ..at 27 years of age.. the victim of a suicide attempt that begin at the tender age of 18..
The excuses: #1
My parents don't like Rock and Roll..( that one won't work.. my Father is a well known Rock Musician)
#2 Because of my father being a famous Rock musician I have had easy access to drugs therefore.. being young and impressionable I was lead or mislead into substance abuse.( this won't work either I never saw my dad he died before I was born and that brings us to ..
#3 I had no father figure.. ( I refuse to justify this one with an answer)
You can believe this or not but.. I will be straight with you ..
I was not abused used or even depressed .. when I first stuck myself .. I was at a party having the time of my life and feeling like I was immune to consequence and I wanted to be high I wanted to be flying and once I took flight I never wanted to land again... maybe there was some hidden agenda.. but as I remember it .. it was for kicks.. and it's lieing to tell people it don't feel good because it does.. it becomes the only thing that does and as
Hamlet might say " There's the Rub".
I hover above this skinny kid.. this wasted little life and I think how much more I should have loved that kid when he was just 18..I feel sorry for him.. and for the man he is today and I hope.. I pray..the line don't go straight...and I hear David Bowie.. singing again ...
Ground Control to Major Tom
Your circuit's dead, there's something wrong
Can you hear me, Major Tom?
Can you hear me, Major Tom?
Can you hear me, Major Tom?
Can you....