all my thoughts

A short story of a synopsis of a romantic delema of a women's problem in a relationship

Well, just taking a view I once knew. Something I loved but long forgotten in a time not too long ago. The only person I ever had.  Although, still doesn't know he is and is all I have. The only to one to depend on, now lost with all the fuse of no losing. I've already lost him and all I have except my kids. He was respectful now resentful. Loving but only lusts when wanted or rather when it suits him. Was loyal now deceitful and hateful. Only thing is now I did love him a long time ago but I find myself now envious and hating him in every aspect. He makes me angry, upset, stressed and anxious. I just can't do it anymore at all! The one soul I had to depend on is gone . The person  I trusted is no longer existent. I ask myself why me? But I have made too many wrong choices for it not to be true. All I wish for is a happiness I never knew. To be and to be is all I am. Happiness there for does not exist only the goal to live. To only servive.