So much on my mind

So many thoughts 

Running through my mind

That I don't feel 

I have a lot of time 

To figure out 

What is truly right 

And what is truly wrong

Even though I know the difference 

So many things

Go against my belief

Yet why am I allowing 

Myself to be tempted and drawn in

Too much down time

Can't stop these thoughts in my mind

I need a moment to breath 

To regain myself 

Feeling lost 

Feeling trapped

Feeling like I can't fight this

Or feeling like I don't want to 

Confused emotions

Too big of an open heart

Letting someone get close

Effecting me, blinding me 

Go now and leave me be

Let me rest in peace

Let me not have a day 

Where I think about you

You're too close 

Too close for comfort

And causing my thoughts

To run over 

In the words of Sara Bareilles

Set me free

Leave me be

I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity 

God give me strength to fight

I don't want to leave your everlasting light

But this hold on my heart that isn't you

I know it isn't true

But it crushes 

And hurts 

And causes me to be someone

I don't want to be

My mind has calmed

My thoughts have gone 

My heart is beating normally again 

Though something aches within me

What it is?

I don't know

And I'm not sure 

I want to know