Why can't I stop?

I don't get how
I get back
On the right path
Follow God
And try to live right

Only to fall prey
Back into an addiction
Into the one thing
That held me back
Before from being right

I ask for forgiveness
I feel His acceptance
But yet I still do
The same thing
I just asked forgiveness for

Why can't I stop?
Why does it have
Such a strong hold
Over me?
Why?

I pray
I cry out
Needing
Wanting help
Yet I feel so ashamed

I cannot even
Face my maker
Knowing I hurt
And disappointed
Him

I want to be sincere
I want to cry out
To Him
But how can I
When I feel so ashamed

But I won't give up
I will try
And continue to try
Relying on the one thing
That has gotten me through before

When I feel weak
I will ask Him for strength
When I feel that certain way
I will just pray until
It goes away

I am a fighter
I will fight through this
With the help of my Father
His strength is what I need
I cannot rely on my own

So once again
This late night
I ask for forgiveness
With my heart
And soul

Please Lord
Forgive this weak soul
I do not want to be
The same person I was
Forgive me

And help me
So then next time
I do not have to sit here
And wonder
Why can't I stop....any longer