Confusion and Lies

Pretty much a plea for help with my current relationship

7:04am

On my computer

Awake and Numb

So many thoughts

Swarming through my head

So many things

Have been said

So many words

Have been spoken

 

One main question is

Why?

Why did you think you could get away with it?

Why?

Why did you think that I wouldn't find out?

Why?

Why try to have both when you have the one in front of you?

 

Questions plauge my mind

Scrambled, jumbled

Lies and Confusion

Is what I am

Now at 7:08am

 

Why lie

About being with you?

I see now

That you don't want anyone

To know about me...

You speak a big talk

You say a lot of things

Like you said

You have a way with words

But so do I

 

You say you really do love me

That you want me

As the mother of your children

How do I know that is not a lie?

So many things

Are being reveled

And they are not making you

Look any better

 

Why can't you just tell me

The complete truth

You were busted..

Live up to it

Say what really happened

You love me?

Tell me the truth

 

Your scared of losing me

Yet your doing the things

That will cause you to lose me

I was honest with you

Told you how much

I've been hurt

Vulnerable

 

But it was used against me

You turned around

And did what

I never thought you could do

I know

It's about forgive and forget

However, the more stuff I hear

The more I wonder

If I made a mistake

Giving you another chance

 

All I can do

Is show you

What was said

Everything

Then hear the truth

From you

Only then

Could my heart be at ease

Could my mind be at ease