I'm sorry

I'm sorry I'm not goth

I'm sorry I'm not emo

I'm sorry I'm not beautiful in your eyes

 

I'm sorry I have a low self esteem

I'm sorry that I had a fucked up childhood

I'm sorry that I don't have a tough skin

 

I'm sorry I can't ignore things right in my face

I'm sorry I can't let things roll of off my back

I'm sorry I can't make you understand s**t

 

I'm sorry I've tried to kill myself

I'm sorry I'm depressed

I'm sorry I'm a cutter

 

I'm sorry I'm broken

I'm sorry I'm complicated

I'm sorry for not being strong like you

 

I'm sorry for being raped at age 12

I'm sorry for being molested as a child

I'm sorry for being called fat and beat up by your own cousins

 

I'm sorry I was abused in a relationship

I'm sorry I was nearly killed by my ex boyfriend

I'm sorry I have scars to show me barely surviving

 

I'm sorry for being engaged

I'm sorry for being mentally and physically abuse once more

I'm sorry for wanting to die

 

I'm sorry I've shielded myself from others

I'm sorry I won't let anyone close to me

I'm sorry my past cannot die

 

I'm sorry to this day I still suffer

I'm sorry to I still cry about my hardships

I'm sorry that no matter how hard I try to be strong I can't

 

I'm sorry for shedding tears on my past

I'm sorry for being hurt so easily

I'm sorry for being so fragile

 

I'm sorry for still wanting to die

I'm sorry for feeling alone

I'm sorry for wanting to hold everything inside

 

I'm sorry I have to drink to numb the pain

I'm sorry I have to cut to make things barable

I'm sorry I can't have a moment's peace without something destroying it

 

What I'm most sorry for

Is that you'll never feel what I have felt

And never ever once have to go through, what I have gone through

Reviews

[Dani California]

Oh my... ok, gosh. Where to start.
I know..

Don't apologize for being you. We are all uniquely
crafted and beautiful. You see, we tend to judge ourselves
based on what others think, instead of seeing who we really are.
There is a writer on this site who sent me and others
a comment the other day. I am about to copy and paste it
here in this comment, as I think it may be insightful and
perhaps helpful. I don't think he'll mind at all ... :)

JAN'S COMMENT (very wise, btw):

The truth within your consciousness is like the horizon that recedes before you. As you journey towards your inner quest in the direction of the leading edge of your belief acceptance. And your knowledge and understanding of the prevailing path grows, the next ascending possibility will always beckon you. For wisdom brings together within the truth of your existence, your soul's essence, in which is attained by your own experience. Pursue your goal of achieving the truth within your reality of consciousness, in the most direct manner. The paradox is of course, is that you are both the voyager and the pathway; the treasure that you seek is undeveloped within you and has always been and always will be. It has not been hidden from you, you have hid from it, so wake it up, face it, accept it, than use it, by becoming it.
Jan/uisiom