chapter 2

The doctor had been very little help in my search to find my dad he had given me a tiny clue.  So tiny that you needed a microscope to see it but it was still there.  My friends were still scared and didn't want to help me any more but they promised since they were going to be able to find their father too.  I should probably mention now that i have serious anger problem at times.   My mother thinks its a lack of medication in my life and when I refuse to take it she freaks out and says I need it.  I need medication like I need a hole in the head.

I was surprised that Dr. Thomas British had become a doctor in the first place.  I know his sister and she was way different than him.  She was a cop and a writer...and my hero.  She said that it doesn't matter who your parents are or if one isn't there for you, you're the one who shapes your future.  I haven't seen her in a long time and I figured I could ask her since she has my anger problems too.

"To what do I owe this visit to young Sapphyre?" Alex asked, answering the door before I knocked.

"You still have to tell me how you do that you know." I avoided the question.

"You want to know how to control your anger over not finding your father through my brother...again...right? Or did you just miss my winning charm and pretty face." She said sarcastically.

I looked at her with surprise.  She was always doing weird mind tricks on me, and anyone else who dare stall on answering her questions, but this was way to close even for her.  Alex was a great cop for her mind tricks, but sometimes I felt like there was something more to it all.  Why would she know what was exactly on my mind at that exact moment. 

"OK, you know it freaks me out enough when you're in the ball park of what's on my mind, but to actually know what's on my mind is pushing it." I said, clenching my fist.

"Easy kiddo.  You're not ready to hear a lot of what you're searching for.  You're anger is getting way out of control...have you been taking..."

"I DON'T TAKE MEDICINE! I NEVER WILL!" I shouted, cutting her off.

"You are way to much like me, it's scary.  I didn't like taking medicine either, but I do because it helps me control myself.  It's apart of who I am now, it should become apart of you too." She said sitting down with a cup of coffee in her hands.

"Yeah...well...my mom thinks I should just stop asking questions about my father.  She just can't stand to even think about the man, let alone clue in her daughter as to why...I think I have every right to know who my father is...by the way, Tom faints way too easily..." I started rambling.

"Well that's a given, Hun. Tom has always been the squeamish one in the family...that and his mother."

That's when I remembered that Alex also had a missing parent in her life.  Her mother had died in child birth and her "twin" Tom's real twin died as well.  Her father did the unthinkable and switched the babies so Alex was raised as his wife's missing child...and I thought my family had problems.

So we talked a little more but Alex also was avoided the subject of my father.  It seemed that everyone knew about my dad but wouldn't tell me.  Alex probably had a good reason but it's not fair that I have to follow clues, or lack there of, and figure out the tiniest hint of who the man was!  Then Alex's phone went off in the kitchen and that was my Que to leave.

"Well I should let you get that...thanks for the talk.  Although you didn't really help me with my daddy situation yet." I said sarcastically pouting.

*SIGH* "Alright, I could try and pull some strings at the station and see if I can't dig anything up...will that get you off my back for a bit kiddo?" She said rolling her eyes.

"YES! I mean...that's much appreciated Alex..."I tried to fix my enthusiasm but I had already jumped up and hugged her.

"Yeah, yeah, yeah.  But listen to me very carefully, you may not like what I find if I find anything which I'm not promising I will.  But non the less you may not enjoy the knowledge of who you're father is...it's hard to except being thrown aside like you didn't exist...so just keep it in mind...hell you're mother may not have even told him!" She shouted to my back as I walked out the door.

Funny thing is, I should have listened to her.  I had no idea how right she really was...I never did until it was to late.