Dear Mother,...

Dear Mother,

Thank you for the abuse

You made me the person I am today

 

 

You told me I could never make it in any career I tried

I am a failure

 

You never encouraged my natural talents

I can't do anything

 

Your emotions always run hot, then cold

I'm so confused

 

You said you wished you never had children

I wish you hadn't

 

You ignore me at every opportunity

I am invisible

 

You do your best to beat me down

I never stand up for myself

 

I can never seem to please you

I try to please everyone

 

You helped my step-father sexually abuse me

I distrust men

 

You shattered any trust I had in you

I feel betrayed

 

You tried to live vicariously through me

I didn't fit your mold

 

You demand that I spend time with you, then change your mind

I don't understand

 

You are only concerned with how I look

I'm not pretty or skinny enough

 

You focus on money and possessions

I am poor and own little

 

You made it impossible for me to have a healthy relationship

I am broken

 

You made me distrustful of everyone

I can't form attachments

 

You make me fit all of this mess into a "normal" facade

I have so much anger

 

No Love

No Confidence

No Trust

 

Only Disconnection

Only Confusion

Only Hatred

 

 

Dear Mother,

Thank you for the abuse

You made me the person I am today

 

 

Author's Note

I have needed to get this off my chest for years and I feel a bit better now. Writing is very therapeutic. If anyone ever wonders why my some of my writing is so horrible or bazaar, this should give you a clue. I'm a screwed up individual.