Den Mother's Pup / The Lone Wolf Song of Sorrow

A lone wolf pushed into a corner is a vicious beast

Mother can you hear me , Can you hear my cries for war and my unquenchable thirst for answers I bet you never thought your son could be so evil when he was searching through his life for purpose. I have seen what people are capable of and how they tear and they rip each other apart . I never wanted to hurt or to be hurt so poisonously paranoid and angry at the world maybe that's cliche but see through my eyes and listen thru my ears at the shadows that surround me . Can't you see them scheming can't you hear them laughing at me, well I can hear the sounds of laughter they push me into the corner where I think that my only way out is to growl and bite like a vicious dog who's been torchered and starved to the point of thirsting for blood . I'm sorry mother I guess I'm ready to cover my tracks. It's not that I am dwelling on the past but maybe I am just scared of my future . I'm tired of surviving I did that enough on the streets . Maybe a family of my own will bring meaning to my life and I won't have to strive to be part of somebody else's , I'm tired of hurting so tired of running fighting and struggling to survive as I see my way will I choose to continue treading the black clouds raining poisonous thoughts all over my mind. I try everyday to keep my thoughts loaded with positive ammunition because the nightmares still haunt my sleepless nights as the war continues inside my head . The guilty pleasures of my past are depleting my sanity as well as my depression I deal with everyday , will darkness erode my every being or do I still have time to save my soul lest I dig my own grave .