You can't catch me.

I struggled so hard to get away from this place. This poem is a few years old, I no longer harm myself, but this poem was still hard to reread.

Run, run run,

As fast as you can!

You can't catch me,

I'm the gingerbread man.

Run, run run,

As fast as you can!

You can't catch me,

I'm the gingerbread man.

In school,

I'm visible, smiling, laughing.

At home,

I fade away.

A smile seems

Out of place.

Someone please sow my heart at the seams,

I can't take the tears on my tear stained face.

I cry and cry,

But what does it help?

I cry and cry,

Everything get's worse.

A soaked pillow,

Is what I wake up to every night.

My life is slipping away,

Into my own personal darkness.

What comes next?

When will things get better?

As these tears fall,

The whiteout effects come on, my surroundings slip further into the distance.

All I hear is pen hit paper,

My words pouring out.

I am thinking about my knife lying in the drawer,

I can almost feel the weight of it in my hand.

I know it's not the way,

But it's calling my name.

Can I control the want?

The desire to take the pain from my heart?

I think I can,

I'll write.

But the pains still here?

There's no one who understands,

I need someones help.

Someone who can, can what?

I need someone to save me from myself.

I don't want to slip away,

I want to stay here.

For what reason?

I don't know.

I'm just a teenager,

How could I want death?

Someone will makes this worth living through, 

Right?

I can't do this alone,

But..

Who do I turn to?

Can I trust anyone?

Can't turn to my parents,

threats of ending up in the psychiatric ward.

I don't want to scare my friends.

Who to turn to? When everyone could think I'm crazy?

The music blaring,

Yes, it numbs me.

But I can't be numb forever,

Eventually the pain catches up.

Author's Note

I realize this is kind of.. depressing. This one was hard to write, hard to reread.. Hard to post..

Reviews

[∠( ᐛ 」..]

I loved this amazing poem.
Great job!
100/100

[Angel With A Shotgun]

Thank you!

[Sunkissed Circus]

thank you for posting this.

[Angel With A Shotgun]

It was hard to, but I'm glad I did.

[ImperfectXme]

thumbs up been there

[Angel With A Shotgun]

Defintely. You made it out okay, right? It's nice knowing I'm not the only one.

[ImperfectXme]

Its your writing:), no one can change that...If people have not said anything it probably is because they understand lol

[Angel With A Shotgun]

thankss.