Giving Up My Religion

Feeling

Feel like I’m a target.
Feel like me and my family did something to deserve this.
We are good people and do the safety calls.
Feel like the lord and the universe is angry at us.
Feel like the lord isn’t doing anything to fix this issue.
Like he is sitting in his comfy chair with a bucket of popcorn watching us, laughing at us, and not caring for what is going on down here.
I am so angry at him.
Hating him.
I’m about to give up praying since he isn’t helping and not making it go away and not making it better.
All i’m doing now is crying and giving up hope.
Believing that the lord is not real.
I’m about to give up my faith and religion.
There is no need for religion anymore.
There is no need to believe in the lord anymore.
The lord is just an imagination in my head.
He is not real to me anymore.