Feeling Overwhelmed

What i’ve been feeling.

Been at my boyfriend house since January 7th.
Just found out my mom has covid on the 16th.
I cannot go home now for 14 days. Her symptoms are not bad, but I'm still worried.
My love even rather I don’t go home for longer then the 14 days. If I do go home after that time frame he rather i wait 2 weeks and get tested before I go back over his place.
This pandemic is really pushing me to the limit. I don’t know how much longer I can take it.
Feel like giving up.
I feel like I’m alone and a bad daughter.
If I was the one with covid I bet my parents will not be as freaked out as I am and will be there for me.
I’m so done with this covid crap. It needs to end.
I wish covid was never created and not a thing.
I feel like I'm choosing my boyfriend and his family over them. He is not making me choose between but i feel like I am.
People will be wary of me and treat me like a plague if i returned to my house after 14 days and go back to work or at my boyfriend’s place. I feel like I'd be judged and become alone.
Sort of want to give up everything.
I don’t want to be afraid of Covid forever and worry about giving it to others forever and feeling judged and controlled.
I want the world to think of it like they think and act about the seasonal flu.
Wish they would just shut down or lockdown the US like Italy and other countries and states did. That will solve everything...maybe.