Hidden Words

More raw/unrefined poetry. Alternate title: (_ _ _ _ ~ _ _ _ _)

Panting, breathless, I rest up in a tree

High above the stress and pressure chasing after me

My glasses fogged are sliding down my sleek and sweaty nose

And how long will I stay up here? nO onE knowS

Feet are bare for better grip

The bark a stark reality

Scraping sears, but they don't slip

As I ascend into the tree

The flame of heat from scratched-up skin

It warms my arms and feet

I find a crook to nestle in

Pretending it's a comfy seat

I pause and stop to breathe again

I'm safe from all below

Alone at last, with peace within

Unlike a moment ago

I know I'll have to go back soon

But soon can wait a minute yet

I turn my eyes toward the moon

Which shined as bright when first we met

I wished upon that moon, y'know

A few short years ago

A wink received, no yes or no

A year before the Answer would show

Beside the moon, I see a star

Gleaming brightly from afar

I tried to touch it once, you see

And yet its gleam was not for me

Nighttime branches silhouette

Their shapes upon the clouds above

"No" preempts the phrase "Not Yet"

And blossoms bear no seeds for love

And yet, and yet, and yet, and yet...

The story isn't over yet

For all things shall be well, my friend

If all ain't well, it ain't the end

The path ahead can any know?

The way is dark with gloomy glow

But who can say, when morning dawns

If yet, Perhaps, we'll find our fawns

I want to let these feelings go

Please leave me here to rest in peace

Yet such a death is worse, I know

So pent up hope has no release

Bravery, a tricky word

The story's end it cannot tell

It leads us, calling fears absurd

To meet our maker, heaven, or hell

Laughter in a subtle smirk

How could I despise its touch

Whether found in play or work

Could there ever be too much?

Life is hard, but life is good

Writing poems helps me vent

Words are words and blah-blah-bluud

Tannahooshie cumberdend

If I wrote with words unspoken

Would my meaning come across?

Curiosity awoken

Only Time would be the loss...

Haka mooshaviernagog

Gimmen napareane

Fazthimon untierilog

Kama semprileen

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I miss you, honestly I do

I promise, for I know it's true

I find it hard to carry on

I doubt I'll ever see the dawn

I flinch at shadows of the light

Laughter, love, and smiles bright

I find it hard to enter in

And join the glowing hearts within

I find a solace in the dark

The chilling cold, the empty park

I wish my life were not this way

And yet I have but little say

I pray to God my soul to keep

As here I graze, a wandering sheep

Breathing slowly, settled down

My face is bent into a frown

I'll never publish such raw words

Of that the world can be assured

But God my Savior sees me here

When I feel far, I know He's near

And He protects my wounded soul

The one I doubt will ever feel whole

I'm out of words, I hate this place

Nothing will bring joy to my face

Jesus Christ, the Son of God

My only hope, His staff and rod

So strike me, Lord, for wounds from friends

Leave marks of care when stinging ends

I beckon love, embracing pain

Let wrathful clouds bring comfort's rain

This anguish lingers on and on

I doubt I'll ever find it gone

Seething anger boils inside

Could heat like this purify your bride?

How do I carry on, oh Lord?

How do I get to where all is restored?

I'm done-y done, can't take this fight

Can't quite believe I'll be alright

Cease and desist, it's far too much

The pressure breaks hope's fleeting crutch

I'm lost and alone, dying inside

See all the years of tears I've cried?

Stop it, God! Just stop this game!

I'm singed and burned by satan's flame

How long will you let me rotisserie

Upon the spit of agony

Glegh is how I feel right now

There's nothing I can do but bow

Surrendering all I am again

Praying for your peace within

I hate it, God, and it hates me

I'm back where darkness haunts the free

I'm tired, sad, and full of ash

I feel like garbage, gross like trash

Take my zombie-pigman me

And make me who you want me to be

What everyone around me sees

Is far from what I am beneath

Gleghy gleghy glooby glog

Slishy sloggy sloopy slog