Drunken Ways

The loneliness while in the background everything starts to fade and the feelings of elsewhere.

The killing days

   Take it strong

      While pain lingers, 

         I ask for another 

  Feelings drowning 

I still feel the pain 

sober or not.

               Bearable nights will play hard to get,

                         as lonely nights prefer the cold ice 

                                    Drifting among the dizziness 

              

                This room is rainy.

         Always full and empty

            somehow you can catch me in between.

Catching dreams pretending I’m asleep

 resembles your eyes scanning the horizons 

For new beginnings

My eyes crossing Madness was a new thing to do

Yet we still drink hoping 

 wishes meet our expectations 

thinking about times 

fading away like colors of a recent fallen feather.

Letting some out has done nothing more than made my vision blurry 

Scaling my emotions did nothing

I’m just trying to wake up

Author's Note

What you see or feel while reading . hope you enjoy spent all day trying to write and manage something.

Reviews

[Poetic Beauty]

Many times drinking only blurs and amplifies the negative emotions. There aren’t bottles big enough to drown some hurts and sorrows . Only big enough to eventually kills us or our souls

Profound write that made me think deeply

[Marvin Thomas Cox-Flynn..]

We drink, either, because we enjoy drinking and its calming relaxing effects, or to drown out the static rumbling though our minds from those things, happenings, events, worries, troubles, etc. that we simply do not enjoy, and the booze becomes a liquid bandage that only holds and covers such negative wounds for a short time ... I enjoy a cold beer and sipping whiskey, because I like it ... However, especially since losing my wife this past January, there are times of recent when find myself reaching for that bandage, rather than the pleasantry of enjoying a drink ...

Considering that I am suffering the grief and mourning of losing my wife, your words are most real and truly poignant to me at this juncture in my elderly life ...

Marvin Thomas Cox-Flynn de Graham

[Andrew Nelson Stewart]

It’s been awhile since I’ve login on my writers account here but I say your comment is much appreciated and a pleasure to have a thoughtful composed supporter such as yourself. I’m truly sorry to hear about your loss as it’s truly devastating to go through grief processes as speaking from life’s experiences loss a lot in my life… But life continues on as we continue on through life’s journey. Sending my deepest empathies and blessings to you sir… thanks again for your support sincerely fellow poet in writing and life. 🙏✍️

[light and ashes]

This is gorgeous. You did a really amazing job here. I've reviewed this before, but it deserved more.

100

[Andrew Nelson Stewart]

I'm just pleased to hear my work brings you joy and sincerely appreciate your kind words and encouragement... :)

[light and ashes]

You're welcome, I always regretted that I didn't do this justice the first time with my review, so I came back to fix it.

[Coyote Poetry]

I was a drinker for 36 years.
"Yet we still drink hoping
wishes meet our expectations
thinking about times
fading away like colors of a recent fallen feather."
The above lines, I do understand. Drinking never fix anything. Just made my vision look at life with confused eyes. Outstanding poetry shared Andrew.
Coyote

[Andrew Nelson Stewart]

I stopped years ago the weird thing is only started when I turned 21 yes I know good boy haha it's highly addictive yet everyone has their good share. Thanks again for this review :)

[Coyote Poetry]

I drink a shot on a rare occasion. You are welcome Andrew.

[Susan 🦋]

And this is why I dont drink lol. Holy cow!..yet, you caught me on " always full and empty"...interesting. yes, how full we can be in this life, and yet...feel so empty...lonely.

[Andrew Nelson Stewart]

Loneliness speaks highly yet wrote this when caught up in that feeling like a fly in spider webs. But we learn more from it than the other way around. I appreciate your review :) sincerely your friend in poetry and life

[Laz K.]

Wow, lots of great images to capture the pain of...whatever it might be, the need to escape it, and to somehow force reality to match our expectations. I'm beginning to sense that that's the ultimate tragedy of man.

This is a great, skillful poem with real substance.

[Andrew Nelson Stewart]

Pain is essential yet at the same time makes us fearful sometimes vices are necessary to curb things when it gets overwhelming. Your right or the case Dr.Jekyll and Mr. Hyde haha that classic never gets old . I appreciate you stopping by I'll be sure to get you back... :) sincerely your friend in writing and life

[Ruth]

Whatever vice propels us into another day (sometimes needed) comes with blessings and banes...I understand this piece and appreciate the rawness of it, such things should never be swept under the metaphorical rug but rather spoken loudly, to know you don't go through life's battles alone is sometimes enough as well...powerful piece Andrew...

[Andrew Nelson Stewart]

rawness is key just let it out cause soon we figure out starving feelings will never do cause they never fast only grow stronger in time of absence. Your absolutely right :) Thanks again for this beautiful review made my night. sincerely your friend in writing and life

[Broken.]

I really enjoyed this, it hit home for me. I admire your will to keep going, regardless of the pain. I know struggle with this pain too, and more often than not find myself drinking just to soothe my mind to sleep. Its difficult, it's a rollercoaster of an experience, both good and bad moments that I can remember involved drinking. Nice work (:

[Andrew Nelson Stewart]

The struggles paints a picture this is how it will always be and "how the show must go on" as whitman would say. Thanks for stopping by, your review is very thoughtful to me. :)

[Broken.]

Yes I tell myself this everyday. The show must go on!

[I Am Svetlana]

This is quite an emotional piece of work you created! I enjoyed it a lot.
I can understand the constant urge to "drown" any pain/sorrow one must feel, yet have it never go away once the bottle is empty. It's a thing that gives us the liquid courage to let go and forget our thoughts/feelings of anything negative in our real lives...but when we get sober, it all comes crashing down at once and it's not an easy thing to deal with. I can relate to this struggle...magnificent job!

[Andrew Nelson Stewart]

“Frankly, I was horrified by life, at what a man had to do simply in order to eat, sleep, and keep himself clothed. So I stayed in bed and drank. When you drank the world was still out there, but for the moment it didn’t have you by the throat.” Charles Bukowski said once. Some poems you have to force out in order to achieve. Thanks for stopping by and nice to meet you. :)