Running on empty

I hate the nights
When sleep just evades me
And my racing mind
Does its best to persuade me
Of everything wrong
That I've been or could be
Locked in with my thoughts
That scream I'll not be free
While trapped in a body
Doing is best to defeat me
I hate the nights
When I'm less than I could be
And I'm all out of fight
But quitting's not in me
So I stare at the ceiling
Like there's answers I should see
Engraved in the paint
That's hanging above me
Instead of just dreaming
Like I wish I could be
I hate the nights
When everything hates me
And even my soul
Is running on empty.

Author's Note

Hoping to be understood clearly

Reviews

[Sameeksha Vadisherla]

I am reminded of this ''It is a bad day, not a bad life''. Beautiful poem, Andra.
'Locked in with my thoughts
That scream I'll not be free' Relatable lines. Never let those inner demons control you.

Powerful poem and thank you for sharing, Andra.
Stay Happy :)

[Andra Davis]

Thank you 😊

[Sameeksha Vadisherla]

Most welcome :)

[Twilight]

Possibly, "running on empty"; could be down to mental exhaustion even.? Or, simply; overthinking different aspects of your life..?

[AYVID N]

Someone who writes like this can never have a soul that's empty. You take your reader with you on your journey of deep introspection and make them feel your pain and unsurity. You're an amazing poet, dear Andra.

[Dave]

Bad as things may be, I'm reminded of Lincoln's quote after having lost to Stephen Douglas in a debate.
"And this too, shall pass."
Take special good care of yourself - Dave

[Andra Davis]

You're such a kind person. Thank you Dave.

[MEKylie]

I felt this poem. Wish you could do more. You are great! And you're doing just fine, life will soon favor you.

[Desert Knave]

I am a bipolar with a lot of sleep issues, and cannot stand the nights when thinking (not the pleasant kind) gets between me and sleep. Nice write. ~Jim

[Chris]

You describe "our" world fairly well. People 'deal' as only they can and revisit and revisit and revisit their whole lives through.

[trokanmariel33]

Whether or not, the poetry independent of the words and terms is responsible for the awareness of ideas - that's what your writing imbued me with. Thank you.

[Thomas W Case]

Very relatable. Fantastic work.

[light and ashes]

Been there, and yes, it sucks.
Good write.

[Andra Davis]

Thank you. Nice of you.

[light and ashes]

You're very welcome.
It's a good write.
I don't mind saying so..

[emmajoygreen]

Can understand the reasoning behind this finely laid poem, Andra, For me, night is the time when life hits home and there's enough peace in dark to try to work out why! Your writing is going to be more than welcome on this site.

[Andra Davis]

With faces and things out of sight I do my own workings in the night. Happy to be here. Thank you emmajoygreen.