"Trembles..."

Being paused

I always remember the real world as I read this aloud...

and am still paused every time. 

 

“Trembles…”

 

How do you define

those particular “moments” -

the ones that …the world held its place

and made you SEE til you couldn’t …see,

wouldn’t see any more?

 

I remember a place of sea walls,

stone walls - fences…

hills, trees edging glaciers - and cliffs…

unending cliffs.

A place of thousand MILE stares,

as a helicopter smoldered.

All to pause and watch the nothings.

 

It's amazing how 3 A.M. can actually be any time at all -

when your mind just takes a leap into …itself

where all you hear is the listening

to footsteps overshadowing our own...

 

Some questions seem to always await just offstage.

Paths not taken can still touch years after.

 

…so many nightmares lived
and breathed
and yet I dream of gentle smiles and hands being held
the feel of sunshine
caring eyes... how it is to laugh
and how it feels being the me I am.

So catch a breath... touch your stars,

the world will be yours soon enough -

soon enough…

 

“Trembles…”

 

What makes you hold your breath?

or pause in mid-step?

What brings a lil girl smile

...and a woman's blush?

 

Do you daydream in quiet places?

feel the need to be somewhere, a n y w h e r e  else,

do memories of warmer times ghost your thoughts?

are you drawn by the raindrops?

feel the eves heaviness as you lay back and dream?

Do you find you wish you took the other path

- the one that you almost, or could have, or would have but...

or should have, or even wish you might have had any other path to choose?

 

Sigh, just some thoughts on a woman's way of being…

some thoughts on a woman …living.

 

Some moments… where fingertips touch

and hearts pause

and eyes see deep inside behind all the walls

and breath can't be found… just caught.

And it isn't exactly a smile on the lips

but it is exactly a hunger recognized and

accepted and

free to fly.

 

When the tongue-in-cheek ...isn't
and the ayes glisten -
I'm reminded of THAT look 
in your eyes
and the way your body
just leans into ...absolutely nothing
...just as you bite your lower lip.

Puuuurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr… yeah I am…

 

But -

Sigh, we so seldom have the time we wish

To even know - let alone hold on to,

the ones we care about

But in the dark - as we stare into our silence

…trembling…

we always know who and

what really mattered

…and what didn’t.

 

Chris

 

 

 

Author's Note

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Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

there are different kinds of trembles...the ones we get when we are around women like the one in this poem...
but then at 3am...those musings come and we don't even really know what time of day it is...we tremble with inspiration...and in our subconscious, even the choices we didn't make remind us that we always did know what mattered, who mattered, and maybe why we matter.

[AprilRN1210]

you said what I couldn't say Jacob.. I was still trembling from the emotions running through me.. I love your insight.. sorry, just had to jump in and let you know that..

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you, April.....Chris' work just moves me so much. there is so much hidden insight.

[AprilRN1210]

as it moves me, so much so that I was struggling to sound halfway literate when reviewing.. I still remember the first piece of his I ever read.. I admit, I love hearing your wise insight when reviewing, hence the revisit and comment on this.. it was my pleasure on both accounts..

[Chris]

Jacob... your pause is appreciated... and thoughts always heard.

[Scott Lee]

This touched me and was executed exquisitely. I loved every single line. Thank you for being born. Beautifully penned Sir.

[J. J. Nightingale]

Times added..subtracted, to keep the sanity intact

I am lost in thoughts, nowadays ..a mismosh of rememberings


But what mattered/matters..is very clear

Well done Chris

Jaz

[BeeBev]

This felt so emotional and personal. Thinking of other paths we could have taken and what might have been different to how it is now. Enjoyed reading.

[Chris]

Nice of you to pause... and sharing your thoughts...

[h d e rushin]

"do you find you wish you took the other path; the one that you almost, or could have, or
would have but"

and this frightens me. Frightens me to think what could have happened or what might have
happened if happenstance hadn't intervened. But dreams of how things might have turned out
are those eidolon, unsubstantial images that memory gets paid to take care of. All else,
from here on out, is academic..

well written chris....dana

[Chris]

nice having you pause and sharing your thoughts Dana...

[Norman Tveit]

Epic. It gives me pause as well!

[Chris]

Norman - if I may, welcome and I hope you find it worth your returning.

[Norman Tveit]

Thank you. If you have a moment please check out my stuff..

[Chris]

I'll be glad to Norman...

[Emily B]

you are amazing, you find treasures and rainbows in places other folks would never think to look

[Chris]

Hi Em... how are doing?

[Emily B]

hanging in, how are you?

[Chris]

The radio was a good evening...

[Emily B]

i did some hand sewing, going to Boone's Fort this evening to hear an account of a Frontier Doctorread morei did some hand sewing, going to Boone's Fort this evening to hear an account of a Frontier Doctor

[Chris]

sounds like a good place to be... the guys doing ok?

[Emily B]

Garrett has a young lady :) he will soon be driving

[Chris]

Ooooooo...I can see the mom's radar turning side-to-side... chuckling here

[Emily B]

he has a new found appreciation for the worth of women, she's a good girl. smart and funny and stubborn

[Alfred Kukitz]

Monumental in its scope. Your writing comes off the page and kisses the reader's soul. Thank you for this one Chris!

Regards,
Al

[olla]

yup.........................

[AprilRN1210]

I am speechless Chris.. you have a way of making me hold my breath when I read your pieces... lost in the emotion... transported into the moment... helpless to think or feel anything else.... hanging on every word.. heart fluttering as you pause... and accentuate words... giving them concise meaning and power... the depth of "understanding", of reflection into the heart and mind, the passion behind this write is stunning... wow!... going straight into library, for I want to savor this one over and over... you are absolutely amazing my friend..

[Chris]

April, thank you for pausing and your thoughts are appreciated.