"Just Bein'..."

It speaks for itself

"Just Bein’..."

 

Is again in the early morn.

 

Sometimes... I sit and stare off into - that, other place

that other place where it isn't always as hard to be ...me -

at a given time, on a given ...day, hour, minute... moment.

 

YEAH, an I ain't no one really... just a person, that guy -

that man, woman, kid next door - cross the street, down that block

walkin tha hood, standin, sittin - breathin'hard in the cold chill of ...now.

 

Sometimes I just want ta say - anything ...something...

to choke out an "h'lo..." and maybe just pause the world runnin by

for just a second - just ...a second... know what I mean?

 

An' sometimes I just want... I don't always know what -

just that I FEEL it deep inside and its like it's leakin-out

bit-by-inch-by-second and the NEED tries to overwhelm me,

become me ...is me...somehow.

 

You ever feel so deep down lonely it pauses you - right there

right ...THERE... where you LIVE - inside, day-at-a-time... 

pauses you outta nowhere, reaches in HARD and grasps ya, tightens-an-tightens

til ya can't breathe, can't make a sound, cry ...nuthin...?

An' it hurts,  freakin hurts bein' you right then ...right then...

and then it passes on - back to wherever it came from

you know - you know exactly what I mean don't ya? - 

I guess its part and parcel of growing up,

of being real, of being a person...sigh.

 

It's early morning here ...before 6...

I do have things to do, really... do, but it's quiet

and I feel like I'm being close with someone - that needs

me to be close to ...right now... and thats ok with me.

I know that need, live it myself more often than not.

 

Hi, come by anytime... it's ok - I don't mind

you can be quiet, silent... fidgetty, jittery...

chitter-chatter away ...be you as you really are

and just maybe you'll hurt a lil less, feel less alone 

for a breath or two or even three.  Hell, maybe

you'll find you can smile a lil ...again... least this once,

this one moment without feelin you have to force it out

- paint-it-in-place to hide the tears and the hurts.  It's ok.

We all been there a time or two ya know.

 

Well, take care now.  Its been ...real.

 

Chris

 

Author's Note

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Reviews

[...]

I really dig your style Chris :) you are uniquely and distinctly touchy-feely in a curious and empathic kinda way.

[Rachelle]

It's that moment for "me time"…. regardless of how it is spent - through introspection, reflection, just observing the world going by or just plain doing nothing…. The soul needs it and more so in the current way of life we live. We put aside what demands there are externally and just exhale.

[Mollie Fitzner]

This reminds me of Simon & Garfunkel--same type of theme--same type of words. This is very classy (as are/were they) "You ever feel so deep..." Up until that sigh, I guess for me, that feelng comes more often than not. The "Hi, come by anytime......" Hey, that could be ANYBODY It could be a potential lover, a friend who wants to share benefits. a down-an-outer who needs company or a meal, one of the many homeless animals I have taken in to keep or for whom I have provided foster care. Great write, great read!

[Penlady]

You WERE being close to someone who needed being close to...you ALWAYS do that in everything you write and it is a gift, really, to all...in reading you, the ego kicks in and the reader feels you are speaking directly to them....and yes, they do understand exactly what you mean...and it is great...especially before the sun comes up...around five thirty and the eyes pop open and one thinks, "Damn! It would be nice to have someone here," and there you are...

[Paula]

Thanks for being real, Chris. Just love this.

[MAC]

a pure and honest write from a genuine person. I'm liking this poem very much Chris.

[Chris]

Glad we could pause - together.

[Rhema Glover]

Interesting poem....really captivating!

[Chris]

Somehow you know what you hear AND what you don't ...and the difference is everything.

[Dhaye]

Hello, Chris! I'm back! Just came from travel and I have only 3 hours sleep. It's almost a week that I stayed in a far away place here in my hometown because of call of duty. I'm feeling fine here so I come again in this place.

This piece...it's another unique poem. It shows you remember a particular person or place...
I can feel, it's full of honesty. Be safe always.

[KWP]

sounds kinda familiar
like... I have heard these words before

echoe's in my soul perhaps
layers bubbling up unto the surface
for me to acknowledge again
because the time is now
right now

there really never were any tomorrow's
or yesterdays

just this right here
you and me

ahhh ancient wisdoms they say
'They?' who is they?

'You know, just those that have always been,
right by your side, yet never seen.''

i second look, a sideways glance through your memories
your vision of moments,
that come as quickly as they go

but you know they are there

just as you are there for me
and i for you
just the knowing

it is enough

yes

is enough

[Tennessee]

Hey kid, I hear this one, it's after midnight and I can't sleep. I like what you did here, it started out maybe someone else was talking and then you were able to turn it into your voice. Clever kid.