Today

i'm going insane :)

I'm fine
I'm okay,
Are two lies,
I tell myself,
Everyday.
Two mask,
That hide,
The true ugly,
That in me, lay.
I know,
This isn't,
The way.
But I just,
Want my problems,
to go away.
I just want,
To have one,
truly good day.
So i'm good,
Is all I say.
While deep down,
My body slowly,
Decays.
I pray and I pray,
That no one can spot,
my uncontrollable disarray.
I am the only one,
who has to pay,
For living my life,
This dishonest way.
For one eye is colored,
The other see's grey.
Maybe i'll be happy,
Today.

Reviews

[Elaine]

I feel weird saying that I enjoyed reading this - window to such pain - but I truly appreciate your pieces and how you share with raw truth and pull the reader in.