acceptance vs denial

Give your body long enough
& it will fail. Sometimes it's little bits and pieces
(You won't notice at first)
Sometimes big chunks go all at once.
Yesterday I was well. Today I am not.
A chunk of wellness broke off
while strolling an aisle of a thrift shop
Disappeared into gone forever
The doctor can see you today.
She'll proclaim the same.
It won't matter that she tells me what I already know.

She tilts her head down slightly when she says it
And then looks up at me
Like a parent explaining how monsters don't live under beds
Or why we can't have candy for breakfast.

I can process it for weeks, slowly think of doom
Or resume living again until the next chunk or bit falls away.

It's a choice, you know, to say you're dying.
I find a safer grace in living today.
Tomorrow, who knows?

Reviews

[Ed Hart]

yeah, losing big hunks can really affect our mood...i have conversations with death every day...it always tells me it's just doing its job, not to take it personally...i guess it's been so close for so long (nine major surgeries, with two this past year), it's tangible, and not entirely unwelcome...my best to you old friend

[An Ordinary Woman]

ah yes and thank you, the same to you my friend. Now that you put it that way, it's a bit easier to grasp...just doin' it's job. I like that! Thank you for the visit. It's delightful to have you stop by dearest Ed.

[TheLostMind]

Your message is loud and clear. Live in the present. Forget the past.. don't worry about the future. Accept life. Accept the present as it is... a really good write :)

[Emily B]

your wonderful, beautiful grace

it is so good to read you

[An Ordinary Woman]

Thank you Emily. It was good to have words for a minute. :)

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

We must give our all today for tomorrow is not a given.
A poem full of profound thinking.

[An Ordinary Woman]

thanks and you are right, my friend.

[Leviathus Fortes]

Live always. Die never.

The time we have we should spend wisely.

[An Ordinary Woman]

I think it's going to get us regardless but we can die trying. har har har!
Thank you for the visit!