Alone But storytime

A Story by TheBitKiller

I wrote the poem but like a story and put it here so BOOM

She looks up at her wall of masked and pulls one off. The one labeled “Happy and cheerful (Family friendly).” She takes a deep breath pushing aside her problems as she slides on her mask. She looks at her reflection and her perfect smile placed neatly on her face. She puts off her mask to get one last look at the real her. She looks so tired and weak. So sad and depressed. Like she’s in pain and can’t escape it. She takes another deep breath and puts she mask back on. The perfect smile back in place. She straightens out her shirt and fluffs up her hair. Takes another deep breath and walks out. The perfect smile stays in place. “Hey kid you look happy today!” Under her mask she winces wanted to cry out.

She has to sudden urge to run away. She asked to go to the backroom for a moment. She sits on the class silently crying. Curling up in a ball she starts to black out. Someone knocks on the door waking her up. “Yes?” She calls out. “You okay in their kid? You’ve been in there for 5 minutes.” A family member states. “Yes I’m fine I’ll be out in a minute sorry for taking so long.” She said out putting fake happiness and cheer in her voice. She comes out moments later and gets asked right away. “Hey kid how have you been!” She smiles up at her brother. “I’ve been good! What about you?” She lies out like its nothing. She stops paying attention to what her brother is saying. ‘Only 2 hours till you can leave’ echos in her head. ‘1 hour 45 minutes’ ‘1 hour 40 minutes’ ‘1 hour 30 minutes.’ Everything with be okay she says to herself in her head. Her aunt walks up to her smiling and says “Oh my god you look so cute today!!”

She look up from your place on the couch. She wonders how she had gotten there and how long she was spaced out for. She looks up at her aunt and smiles “Oh my god you look double the cute today!!” You say back with the say excitement. She winces once again under her mask but doesn’t show it. She feels part of her brain slowly shutting off and going into pain. She wants to cry and run and hide. She doesn’t want to show her face but she is scared to disappoint her family. She must let no one down. She must stay strong.

She looks up at the time. It's 10pm its time for her to go to bed. She says she tired and that she must get up in early in the morning for school and quickly says goodnight to her family before walking off. She goes to her room ad changes into comfy clothes. Sweats and a hoodie. She looks at herself and shakes her head and pulls off her mask. The moment it comes off she starts to cry. She lets herself go. She lays down on the floor not having a real bed and cries. She grabs her blanket and hides under it wanting to disappear. It’s hard for her to act happy when she can’t be happy. After being betrayed by her family she doesn’t want to show her happiness but she does for the sake of her being the only ‘strong’ one in the family.

When really she is the weakest. She cries and hide wanting to die. She looks up at her shelf. She see the knife and picks it up. She holds it smiling a real smile and remember how she got it. When everything was better when everything was happier. She outs the blade and pulls it across her skin feel the edge. Her smile goes away and she watches a drop of blood come out. She puts the knife away before she’s temped to do any worse. She curls up on the floor and cries. She cries and cries until she passes out. She goes to her dreams away from the madness but only to have her dreams betray her as well. She wakes up shaking and crying more. She stays there shaking till the skies turn blue and its time to start another day of stress and overworking herself.