The Spot

A Poem by .Raymond

Pain

I cannot catch a break
Within the very depth of my consciousness is where she is camped
I feel the wrench in my gut
It spreads across my entire being like a cancer
As it slowly eats into the very essence of my soul, I feel hurt unbearable
Existence becomes irrelevant
Food loses its taste, rather becoming just stuffing for the vacuum in my stomach
Indifference becomes the mainstay
I doubt I can forgive myself
How did I come to crave her touch so much when she has never felt me
How did I come to crave her embrace so much when she has never held me
I poured out my innards to her until there was nothing left
My joy and my pain, my glory and my shame
She set me ablaze and it felt amazing as I burnt in flames, until all that remained of me were embers whose glow still fades with each day that passes
My entire being longs for her
Deep, endless yearning
Desires unrequited sure to haunt relentlessly
Can't be friends