And I wonder if...

Wondering about the loyalties of friends.

I have to wonder, if I left, would you call after me?

 

I have to wonder, if I fell, would you help me up?

 

I have to wonder, if I broke, would you put me back together?

 

For some reason, I don't see the answers as "yes", as many would believe (hah! You'd be surprised how many people fall for this charade!). The answers to these questions ring out, strong and true, a resounding "no," and this hurts. I have to wonder, does this hurt you too?

 

I'm sure if you heard this, you would battle with me, saying that those questions aimed at me would have the same answer. Truth is, I would do all those things for you, and you know it too. You know it so well, I hope that the knowledge hurts and hurts bad to make up for all the hurt you've caused me.

 

I might not be able to leave you, but I hope my presence causes you to smarten up. Just because I cannot leave now doesn't mean I will leave, and if things keep up like this, I will leave as soon as possible.

 

I don't want to hit a dead end, and I don't want you to be the cause of that.