My Struggle

           To watch you take your first steps towards your new destiny was a struggle. It still is a struggle, knowing that you're capable of saying intense beautiful words which helped me. They helped me grow; learn to love myself for a change. You taught me how to love. You saw things within me that I was so afraid to bring to the surface. You saw those things and made me embrace them. I thought you loved me.

I thought to myself,

"Hey, this is what love feels like. I've finally found it"

            But then you ruined it by ripping my already fragile heart, to pieces. You took everything away from me, everything good in my life. I thought there was nothing left. Nothing here for me anymore. My whole world revolved around you, you and nothing else. To have that taken away from me, left me broken. I was torn up inside but you didn't see that. You never saw that because you left and never came back. You left and never said one word. You left and I blamed myself. 

            One day, I woke up to see the sun was up. It was sunny. It was hope. For once, I didn't feel sad or broken inside. I felt happy. I'm at the start of a whole new life. A whole new life, without you. The months after you left, I barely left the house. But now, now I can do anything. I can do everything. I left all the memories with you in the past and I looked forward to my happy future.

"I can do this"

              I told myself over and over again. But until then, I never believed it was true.

 

Reviews

[John Alexander McFadyen]

A great tale. And so true. Until you believe in yourself you will NEVER find true love! Well done so well exprerssed.

[Amie Rose]

Thank you very much

[Brielle Cartny]

This portrays your feelings very well! There is so many different kinds of distress and i have found heartbreak to be at the top of all bad emotions. We all need to treat each other well and love at all times no matter how hard.

[Amie Rose]

Thank you and yes heartbreak seems to be the worst... i'm very much in agrement with you about how we need to treat each other well.

[Brielle Cartny]

I know i have made a difference just by letting people know they are loved.

[Zubier_abd]

wow this is nicely written. you have managed to express the feelings of heartbreak and the inevitable return to normalcy in a very provocative and thought provoking way. having gone through something very similar recently i find it very easy to relate to. bravo :)

[Amie Rose]

Thank you very much

[Maria]

yeah.. you better write about that awesome letting go ...

[Amie Rose]

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[Apple Newhouse]

I can relaite to this...same feelings when my first boy friend left me ....same exact thing. I love this! Keep wrting!

[Amie Rose]

Thank you! I just tried to reflect what I felt :) and don't worry, I will!

[Soul Fire]

Amazing!

[Amie Rose]

Haha thank you! :)

[Soul Fire]

You're welcome!

[Jade Ashanti James]

This is amazing! Your really good! Don't stop :)

[Amie Rose]

Thank you my lovely :)

[Makenzi]

You're an amazing writer! I love this. Amie-Rose, you should be proud of yourself and your writing.

[Amie Rose]

Thank you haha and I am deffinately! :)

[Samuel Dickens]

Excellent writing, Amie. Many will relate to this and even learn from it.You take the reader through the process of dealing with hurt and disappointment, then lead them out the other side where the sun shines once more.

[Amie Rose]

Thank you so so much! I've never had anyone say such nice things about my writing before it's such a pleasure to hear. Thank you again!

[Samuel Dickens]

Folks here will like your work--just wait and see.