Struggle

A new life I live

One I love very much

But my past pain keeps me tied

 

Emotions, I was never good at

Expressing love and feelings of happiness have never been my specialty

How I wish life was easier than this

 

Pain and anger is easier to express than love and a smile

Why is it I feel as if I am hiding my true self

Why does my past ghost return

I try to say it is because we all move on

But when looking back I’m not so sure

Then again….

 

The past was a dark time

Why does the darkness try to consume me

Why is it easier to let the darkness take over than fight it

 

The light is a better place

With the sun always shining

But to stay here is a struggle

 

The constant fight is almost too much to bare

But the fight is what makes life living for

The constant struggle inside no one will understand

 

Everyone has their own internal battles

To understand another's battle field is almost impossible

So how does one find release

 

I guess this is my way….