End of A Friendship

Words I could never say. I'm sorry.

I've tried to drop you from my life

Rather cowardly and selfish I'll admit

Even so

I can't quite say

That I'm truly sorry

You want to know why we aren't friends anymore

I don't want to explain

But here I am anyways

The truth is

Our friendship was toxic

Abusive

And I don't know

If you didn't know or tried to pretend you didn't

Don't know if it hurt you

Suffocated you

The same way it did me

If you ever felt

The pain and the fear and the misery 

That I did

Then maybe you'll figure out how

To understand

Remember all those times

That I would flinch under your touch

Crumple when you raised your voice

Fell submissive to your every whim

Moments I shouldn't have brushed off

That was me breaking

I can't be friends

Can't be around

People who 

Make me scared

Repeatedly hurt me

Will never understand me

And it's not

Entirely

Your fault

Because honestly

There's a part of me

That wants to thinks we could survive this

The thing is

Now I realize 

I don't have to

I have a choice

Right now

I choose me

We aren't friends anymore

I'm mostly sorry I just left

But

I don't owe you

The one who hurt me

An explanation

But just in case

I leave you this

And then maybe I can be free from you

Author's Note

I literally don't even know what I was thinking so....take that for what you will

Reviews

[nightshade]

I love this poem it is so amazing. your flow is great and your language is so beautiful and simple. Your topic is something we can all relate to and is actually meaningful. Thanks for writing, keep up the good work

[alf]

Hi HockeyPrincessJade. Good to have you back, my friend!!!~! loved this write, and I have the feeling you know where it came from, just keeping that to yourself (LOL). This is from deep within and because it has so much meaning for you, it tears into the heart of the reader. I could hear your tears and feel the pain!!! An extremely goo write!!!! alf

[AJadeLion]

Thank you! You're amazing and perfect!

[alf]

Just glad to see you back!!!! And it is an extremely good write!!!!