The Choice to Go On

Whenever I feel like dying

It is possible to think of it, it can be done right away, to end your life when you finally realized that no one actually cared about your pain.
In a moment when you find yourself breaking down and not a single touch to help you out came, it's so easy to give up everything, to lose hope when you cannot think of a single person to run to the closest. I've thought about it for a lot of time like everyone else did because it can be the best way. Even if it's morbid and selfish, it can happen that you're forced to say "I should just die now" and maybe I have understood why anyone could kill their own self.
But for every darkness that engulfed me I thank God that there's always that strength in me, that even if I hurt myself and think of disappearing, that even if it becomes easier now to think of dying it appears to me that LEAVING all the wonderful things I am already seeing waiting for me is NEVER EASY.
I should just be very careful and watchful in trusting the ones I should bring into those wonderful things I am looking forward to.