Worth?

Even as I sit and think

I forget what it all means 

How I froze when I was afraid

How I fell when I was ablaze

My heart barely held on

My soul barely realized what was wrong

I kept having my regrets

I kept forgetting my nothingness

I could barely stand and think straight

I could barely imagine what price I'd paid

I'm gone again and barely realized

That the tears that fell are the tears I cried

Now my mind is gone and blank

Now my life is dead and dark

Now my thoughts are torn apart

Now my heart has lost its worth