To love or not to love..

To love or not to love..

A Poem by A.marie.speaks
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I wrote this to battle my constant struggles with trust..

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Am I foolish enough
To give my love away
Tough enough
To survive another break
I'm too tired to go the lengths it takes
To make myself alive again..
But should I be with him
Always depriving him
Never allowing my life with him to succeed
I'm dividing him and myself
But I can't put my past away on the shelf
I desperately need some help
Before I put myself through hell
And ruin his life as well..

© 2015 A.marie.speaks


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No... you ain't ruin his life but save your as well as his heart not to reach & meet poor heartaches. Sometimes, people don't understand the value of their night so without thinking anything, just cos of being lost in desperation, they do make things which're pleasure for body, no doubt, but way hazardous to LIFE when such pleasure turns to devastation. You know what am sayin'.

And.. once getting savored by PLEASURE and DEVASTATION, the heart starts fearing love cos...love is itself a thread - one verse - of temptation & destruction so i guess, you do ..or doin' good. If he loves you hard, he would ev'n find joy of YOUR LOVE in such deprivation you bring to him, not to do anything what scars you due to having some past experiences of love-NIGHTs in life, cos he knows, sooner or later, if his love is true enough to bring you its sweetness, you won't let him deprive off anything he's looking to get from you or your flesh. You'll yourself break the unbound shell of his deprivation that you've created to him & pull him close to your heart so as both of you could come close to each other's night, over the night. So I guess, you doin' good... and also when your own temptation will reach beyond desperation, you, of course, won't let both of you deprive off anything. Excellent poetry. Your metaphor is very saddened in poetry but she's way thoughtful and understandable on love. Wonderful poetry. You opened your heart, undisguised!

Posted 8 Years Ago


A.marie.speaks

8 Years Ago

Thank you very much! The best part of writing is sharing it and it's so gratifying to hear it reson.. read more
Adam Adams

8 Years Ago

You workin' on a "book"? Sounds very fascinating. So what kinda book is it? What genre you be workin.. read more
A.marie.speaks

8 Years Ago

Ih, it's a work in progress.. haha, I have never written a lengthy story before, so I'm trying somet.. read more
This is so beautiful. Glad I stumbled upon it. I directly so can relate on many levels and your imagery was spot on. Thanks for sharing this piece.

~Rob~

Posted 8 Years Ago


A.marie.speaks

8 Years Ago

Thank you very much! Happy to hear you could relate. It's always nice to hear you are not alone in y.. read more
Bohrium Guy

8 Years Ago

I think at some point all of us face the same trials.... the sad part is figuring out how to express.. read more
Trust is a hard commodity to acquire. But human beings are a race of risk-takers. It's part of our evolution. It's why we left the trees and left the other apes behind. Although sometimes I think we took a few with us.

Good poem. You are very talented.

Posted 8 Years Ago


A.marie.speaks

8 Years Ago

Thank you for reading. Trust is a scary but beneficial commodity and I am starting to realize it is .. read more
Ahhh, it is so easy to self-sabotage ourselves in relationships isn't it?
I can relate to this...

A well-penned piece!

Posted 9 Years Ago


A.marie.speaks

9 Years Ago

Oh yes it is.. I find myself subconsciously wrecking things. By the time I realize it's usually too .. read more
Clara

9 Years Ago

Me too, it's like I don't want to but I end up doing it anyway. I wonder if it is partially due to s.. read more
The question of love. I believe we must know what we truly want.
"I desperately need some help
Before I put myself through hell
And ruin his life as well.."
Love touches us rarely in a lifetime. People confuse lust with love. Love is the willingness to live and die for another. Ensuring your love is content and safe over your own needs. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry. Made me think this evening.
Coyote

Posted 9 Years Ago


A.marie.speaks

9 Years Ago

Love is a complicated mess for me, maybe for most people. I'm glad this made you think! That is alwa.. read more
Coyote Poetry

9 Years Ago

You did. I'm old. I know what love is. Love is holding a child for the first time. The embrace creat.. read more
What are the things you need to lead a reasonably content life--or, are you not yet ready for a reasonably content life?
Only you know what you truly must have.
Unfortunately, I'm now thoroughly conflicted; my own trust issues have reemerged.
A thoughtful and, obviously, very effective bit of work, poetess!

Posted 9 Years Ago


A.marie.speaks

9 Years Ago


Thank you and my apologies for drawing you into my state of utter confusion! Trust is a doub.. read more
Jimmy Yetts

9 Years Ago

Was mostly kidding about the mental conflict, A.
A.marie.speaks

9 Years Ago

Oh, I figured! I was mostly being facetious
Heart aching and passionate words. Is there maybe a word missing from the second line though? Give maybe. Otherwise, superbly written.

Posted 9 Years Ago


A.marie.speaks

9 Years Ago

Oops! Yes there is, thank you for pointing that out lol I typed it out too quickly. But I'm glad you.. read more

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