Portrait of Ninon de Lenclos with a LuteA Story by Alysa SalzbergA biographical sketch in homage of the remarkable French courtesan, philosopher, writer, musician, and patroness of the arts, who lived from 1620-1705.I feel so much energy that it is a thing unthinkable to simply sit
down and simper. I want pleasure, movement, laughter, words pouring from
throats into the air like sweet perfumes. I sit and wait for the evening to begin. My chambermaid has done
my hair. The curls fall around my face, tickle my cheeks. I take up my lute and
play. And as I play, I remember more than ever my kind father. It was he who
insisted I learn the instrument, that I read music and sing. Singing was his
philosophy, I suppose, the beautiful noise coming from a person’s throat. Take
pleasure in this, he’d say to me, take pleasure in everything. I learnt, I read
books, I grew up. When I was fifteen years old, he left the earth… I’ll play
on. These memories are utterly at antipodes with the time when Anne of
Austria, mad old bat, had me sent away to a convent for my lack of morals. I
turn a page of music. I have morals, in fact, but not hers. And what good are
her sort of morals anyway; they squelch the soul, and what will we have left
when we die? What will we have profited from the potential joys of life? Thus,
my just conclusion: the usefulness of ‘morality’ is but a noisome delusion. That is what I try to teach the boys who come to me for their lessons in love. Some of them merely pay for my services, but they do not want to learn. Others are poor but willing students, on whom I take pity. And some I call my favorites. I try to impart to these last some of what I’ve discovered. Wisdom has entered me through every orifice. I have it in droves, in my body, in my blood -- I’ve been loved and surrounded by so many men of wit, after all. Love is a delicate art: I tell my boys, “It is much more difficult to be good at making love, than it is to be good at making war.” And if they’ve successfully explored all that I can teach them, then they will know the worthiness of my advice. I won my own little war with Anne of Austria; I didn’t let the bleak, cold convent with its sour-faced occupants, make me become bleak, cold, and sour. One must strive to stay joyful. The joy of a spirit, I think, is the measure of its power. I turn another page of notes. And I will stay joyful, despite the occasional looks I get from
men -- and especially, most especially -- from women, who do not understand me,
who think me a w***e and nothing more. They sit tightly encased in their rules.
They forge their own chains, and bind themselves up forever, and never
complain. But I… Another page is turned. Soon my guests will be arriving, the salon
will begin. We will talk about philosophy, about antiquity, about the events of
the day. We will laugh and our laughter will be music filling the rooms,
pouring out into the halls. The light of the candles will hardly match the
brilliance of spirit of my most honored guests. Molière will be here soon, with
his wit sharp as the silver knives we’ll use at supper, and he will be
surrounded by philosophers and others spouting clever jokes. It is better here,
than it was, even, when I paid a visit to my dear friend Queen Christine of People have begun to arrive. I will go down and greet them. I put
my lute aside; I will keep it ready if they ask me to perform. But I doubt
there will be pause in the conversation. The other night, I had what you might call a vision. I was an old woman, and a young man with a mind burning bright, and a very ready wise word upon his lips, so enchanted me that I gladly gave what some would call a small fortune for him to buy books. Later, when everyone has left, I’ll bring my latest student, Paul,
to my bed, and we shall see what lesson we’ll have tonight. I love to think of
the discussions coming soon, I love to think of what will happen later, in this
room. I’ve never kept my beliefs quiet or concealed. It’s this which allows me
to stroll the streets of © 2010 Alysa SalzbergAuthor's Note
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13 Reviews Added on August 14, 2010 Last Updated on August 14, 2010 Tags: History, biography, courtesan, France, Age of Enlightenment, Philosophy AuthorAlysa SalzbergParis, FranceAboutA reader, a writer, a fingernail biter, a cat person, a traveller, a good kid to be around if you don't like silence, a movie buff, a history buff, sometimes walks around the house in the buff, an ins.. more..Writing
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