ReflectionA Story by Aly-CatOne girl with self-image problems, and another whose life hasn't been easy connect as friends and help eachother in a way that only they could.It’s unbelievable how one day can change everything that you
thought about the world, everything that you knew, and everything that you
believed about yourself. For some people, this day never comes, but for others
it comes too soon, and you have to decide whether you’re going to accept the
change, or fight against it. For me, this was the hardest day of my life, for
more reasons than one, but in the end I believed that I had made the right
choice, I can only hope that I was right. I was walking home
from school, trying to avoid any people who might stop and talk to me along the
way; I wasn’t in the mood to make small talk with someone who doesn’t really
care. The cold pavement was getting gradually smaller as I approached the
abandoned apartment that stood next to my house. It was dark and gloomy, with
the windows broken and covered with planks of wood and whatever that was left
of the paint peeling off of the sides. Many times I considered going inside
just to see what it was like, but fear always got the better of me. I was just about the
pass the house when I heard rustling in the bush next to the door. It was the
only form of life on that property but it just outlined how dead everything
around it was. I kept walking, increasing my speed slightly, but that’s when I
heard it again. Something was definitely in that bush, and the thought of being
next to the abandoned house with no one around me was becoming much less
appealing. I started jogging, hoping to make it past the house and into my
front door as quickly as possible without freaking myself out too much. My
footsteps were crunching against the dirt road that marked the end of the
pavement. When I was away from
the house I made a sudden stop and turned around to take a last look at the
dump that was behind me, but as I did something crashed into me and sent me
falling to the ground. My arm was throbbing and my eyesight was dim and
unfocused, leaving me with a nauseous feeling. A figure was standing before me,
though I couldn’t make out any features apart from the fact that it had short
hair and was wearing a top with what could be a jacket and a pair of baggy
pants. I hadn’t hit my
head on the pavement, so it was unlikely that I had a concussion. I closed my
eyes for a minute and when I reopened them my vision was much better. The
figure was still hanging over me but this time I could see that it was a girl
with light olive skin, grey eyes and short light brown hair. She was in a brown
baggy top with a dark jacket and cargo pants and was wearing cheap runners for
shoes. “Wow I’m so sorry;
here let me help you up.” The mysterious girl held out her hand to me but I
pushed it back and got myself up. “Or not, that’s fine.” I felt like telling
her to buzz off but first I wanted answers as to why she ran into me. “What do you think you’re doing out here sneaking up behind
people and rustling in bloody bushes terrifying whoever walks past!?” She was
startled, but she deserved it, she’s not the one who got pushed onto the dirt
floor. “Well I could ask you the same question, but it seems pretty
obvious. You walk past here every day so I’m assuming you live somewhere
nearby. I was coming up to say hi since we live near each other but apparently
that’s a crime in your eyes. The rustling in the bushes was me getting out of
my house because the door’s a bit unsteady and I’d like to still have a door
hanging in the entrance.” She seemed so straightforward, but she couldn’t be
serious. No one even steps foot in the broken down house, let alone lives
there. Even if she did live around here, I would’ve seen her walking around. “Well yeah I was walking home, but you can’t be serious
about living in that run down shack, it’s barely standing and it doesn’t even
have windows. But fine, if you really live there as you say, show it to me.” I
started walking towards the bush next to the door, the closer I got, the more
miserable the place appeared. I got to the piece of shrubbery and turned around
to see that the girl was just behind me, I hadn’t even heard her footsteps. She
kept moving forward to behind the shrub and started crawling into it. Moments
later her hand appeared from the same place and gestured for me to follow it. Any rational person
would have run by now, everyone knows not to trust a person that you’ve just
met but I didn’t care, I wanted to find out if this girl was telling the truth.
I crawled in behind the bush to find a large hole in the decking. The girl was
already inside it moving further underneath the house, so I followed until she
stopped and started to stand through a hole above us. The inside was dimly
lit by the small rays of sunlight seeping through the cracks in the wood
covered windows and all around me were small supplies. A mattress and blanket
with food rappers scattered around it, coins thrown around and bottles of
water, most of which were empty or half full. The walls were just wood panels
and the floor was creaking so much with every step it felt as though it was
going to collapse at any moment. “Welcome to hell. Sorry that it’s a bit of a mess at the
moment, but my maid’s taking the day off. By the way I’m Jasmine, Jasmine
Burk.” She smiled at me and held her hand out again, this time in a shaking
position. “Sophia Harrison.,” I shook her hand and took a seat on the
mattress, “so what are you doing here by yourself? Are your parents away or
something?” She sat down next to me and started to tell me her story. At first
I was curious, but by the end of it I was just depressed. She came down from
Sydney to Victoria not that long ago after her parents kicked her out of home
on her sixteenth birthday. She was as old as me and had to fend for herself,
hiding in this house and trying to survive. She was adopted when she was one
and the parents that adopted her told her that they knew who her real parents
were. They spent years telling her that her real parents were worthless and
pathetic, and that must be why she’s so useless. Tears started
dripping down from her face and I noticed that my eyes were watery too. Trying to
imagine what Jasmine had been through was near impossible, and it wasn’t for a
couple of minutes that I even had the ability to talk. “Well you know what; you’re not staying in this place any
longer. Grab what you want and come with me.” I crawled back under the floor
and out of the house with Jasmine close behind me. I walked next door to my
house and dragged her to my room. It was a small one story house and my room
wasn’t overly big, but it was better than what she was living in before. “I
know mum will be fine with it and although it’s not much, at least it has
windows and heating.” I looked around at my painted red walls and black carpet.
Never before had I really appreciated what I had, until I heard Jasmine’s
story. I walked towards my
hanging mirror and began to take my makeup off. My shoulder length chocolate
brown hair framed my tanned face. The black eyeliner around my light blue eyes
was smudged due to tears and my skin had patches of dirt on it from the
crawling. I took out my blue contacts to reveal my dark brown eyes and looked
at myself, disgusted with what I saw. It was so plain and average. The roots of
my dyed hair were showing the natural red and even my skin had lost its even
tone. “So you hate
yourself then? I mean no person goes through that much hassle to change
everything they can because they’re fine with the way that they are.” I turned
around, shocked at what I was hearing. Jasmine, who has only known me for a few
hours, was already starting to make assumptions. “I can see that you’re
offended by what I’ve said, but honestly, think about it. I’ve just told you
why I’m the way I am, so come on, cough it up.” So I told her about
my self-hatred; about the number of times that I’ve looked in the mirror and
seen a face that disgusted me. How I go through phases where I think that I’m
fat, so I stop eating, or when I believe that I’m not pretty enough, so I try
to change it. How I’ve tried to convince myself so many times that it’s because
I want to be the best that I can be, so I change myself to be that, instead of
who I actually am, because who I am, isn’t good enough. I didn’t like admitting
that stuff, because I wasn’t only admitting it to Jasmine, but I was also
trying to convince myself. Mum came in a while
later and I told her about Jasmine, and asked if it was okay if she stayed here
for a while. She was fine with it and told us that her sister Molly and her
husband were coming in a week to visit. They lived in New South Wales and mum
doesn’t get to see them very often because of that, so she was extremely
excited. Mum looked like me except without the contacts and dyed hair, so she
still had her long red hair and brown eyes. She works at two of the local shops
to provide the small amount of money that we get, so because she’s always
working, she’s never home to spend time with me. At least now I’d have Jasmine
to talk to after school and on weekends. Months passed
without any problems until the day when I discovered hundreds of dollars in
Jasmine’s draw of belongings. “Where the hell did this come from? You don’t
work and you didn’t have it when you came here so what is it!?” It was then
that I learnt about her thieving history. How she had been surviving on her own
and why she couldn’t stay in Sydney anymore. “When you first met me you weren’t
just coming up to say hi were you? When you pushed me down and saw that I was
weak? Why the hell I trusted you is a question that will never get answered!
Now just get out, get out of this house and run back to the hole that you came
from!” Jasmine ran out of
the house and for weeks later no one had seen her until a police officer came
to our front door telling us about the robbery of a golden locket from
Jasmine’s parents from Sydney. Her parents had reported it missing and it had
enormous money value. Apparently they had evidence that Jasmine was here, so
the police came and tracked her down. Before coming to this house they found
her running out of a shop with stolen items. They chased her down to the old
house next door and she disappeared into the bush next to the door. The door
was kicked open by the officers and they ran through the house, but it was
falling apart so they retreated. Straight after they exited the property the
roof collapsed and the house crashed down. Jasmine’s body was found amongst the
ruins lifeless. After the police
left I ran to my room and lay on my bed soaking the pillow in my tears. I
couldn’t help but feel that it was my fault. If I hadn’t told her to leave,
then she wouldn’t have run back into the broken shack, and it wouldn’t have
collapsed. My mother came in soon after that to try to cheer me up, but at that
point in time, nothing could make me feel any different. “I know that it’s hard to deal with, but just remember, you have to let people go. Everyone who's in your life are meant to be in your journey, but not all of them are meant to stay until the end.” She left after that, and I started to
go through Jasmine’s draw. At the bottom of it I found an envelope addressed to
me. I looked through it and it read: Dear Sophia I’m so sorry that I couldn’t be more
of a friend to you and that I had kept things from you, but I believe that it
was for the best. If you had known about all of my past then you wouldn’t have
thought of me the same way again. I know that I won’t see you again and I give
you this letter in hope that it will be an apology for what it is that I’ve
done wrong. You were the closest thing that I had to family, and even though us
meeting was accidental, it was the best moment I’d had in a long time. Remember
that you don’t have to hide who you are, because who you are is better than
anyone that you pretend to be. As an apology I’m giving you the golden locket
that was given to me at birth from my actual parents, it is worth quite a bit
of money so it should help you with the money problems. Tell your mother that I
thank her for having me and that I appreciate her kindness to a stranger. I
won’t say goodbye because it really isn’t the end, but only a whole new
beginning. Sincerely yours, Jasmine PS: I hope you’re window’s not
broken, I had to climb through it to get into your room to deliver the letter. Inside the envelope was a small golden locket, with a keyhole that
was meant to open it. I held it close and started to sob. I showed it to my
mother with the letter and we both decided not to sell the locket, but to hang
it on the wall as a way to remember Jasmine. Molly and Derick came the next day
to comfort us, and even though they had only met Jasmine once, they still
missed her. We showed them the locket and that’s when their faces turned pale. The locket was given to
Jasmine at birth by her parents, but the key that opened it was still with
them, so then if they found each other, the locket could be opened. Molly took
her necklace with a small key hanging around it and inserted it into the small
keyhole. Inside the locket was an inscription, “Be who you are, not what others
make you”. There’s one day in
people’s lives, where they’re made to question everything that they know about
the world and themselves, but for some, that day never comes. I was one of the
lucky people, who got that chance, and for me, it helped me to see myself in a
different way, and maybe it did for Jasmine too. Even those who are gone still
stay with us forever, and no matter who it is they can have the greatest
impact on our lives, if we let them. I’ll miss Jasmine, but at least she taught
me things that without her, I would never have known. Only the good die young. © 2012 Aly-Cat |
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1 Review Added on September 1, 2012 Last Updated on September 1, 2012 AuthorAly-CatVictoria, AustraliaAboutI love Starkid, Harry Potter, and musical theatre. I attend high school and am still clueless of what I want to do after, but hey as long as I'm happy now everything will hopefully work out eventually.. more..Writing
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