Melted Mascara

the sunlight doesn't seem to hurt so much anymore / my straining retinas are dams for
melted-mascara dyed dribbles / they make good belts, they do / they whip me back into shape /

and hold back the bulge / bound to piss weak rivers 
on parched cheeks /

but i'm not a slave to emotion / i was not built to love / and love was never built to love me /

it can't hold me upright like an easel for tangible splashes of feel / it can only strip my paint and

peel me like a banana / sweet and exposed and dying under exposure /

indeed, the sunlight doesn't hurt anymore / before it used to cast cold pearls
on hot slippery passion /

sizzled in delight; but there is no oil to tease now /

my heart has lost its lubrication /
over the wear and tear of her unmasked hands /

so she will slice me up / i am diced to imperfection /

just the way my closeted mother served me /
on a scruffy paper plate /

that's why i burn so easily and quickly / i was born a wrinkled ugly bloody wonder

and that's the way i'll die / damaged and curling under her heated glaze

i'm not afraid of the rain anymore / it washes away evidence /

of the melted-mascara dyed dribble and replaces it with

the will to carry on /

my skin has had it's drink but 

for god's sake /

come home before I lose my f*****g mind

Reviews

[cilla]

" i was not built to love / and love was never built to love me"

This is awesome ... all of it. It is raw and passionate and vulnerable. There is a score of edgy feelings packed into each line. And it is as the saying goes ... "deja vu all over again" ... as you have captured and portrayed a place that is all too familiar. In the words of Annie Lennox ... here comes the rain again ... and every woman knows this solitary place.

Your work is on a level of its own and you really continue to impress with each new entry. You have spoiled me with the quality and inventiveness of your work.

You rock, girl! Keep it coming!!!

[Liderien]

this is perfect. I love how you meld the tangible with the emotion. The vision you blur just enough to carry the desire to read more. It is utterly fantastic!!!

[Michael G.]

This is the caliber I've come to expect when I read your poetry. First class, and your standards are high.
Great storyline... wonderful flow to this.
Interesting form.
All in all a great read.

[Owlgirl]

Wow! Great writing! I love the formatting and the flow is amazing!