Melted Mascara

the sunlight doesn't seem to hurt so much anymore / my straining retinas are dams for
melted-mascara dyed dribbles / they make good belts, they do / they whip me back into shape /

and hold back the bulge / bound to piss weak rivers 
on parched cheeks /

but i'm not a slave to emotion / i was not built to love / and love was never built to love me /

it can't hold me upright like an easel for tangible splashes of feel / it can only strip my paint and

peel me like a banana / sweet and exposed and dying under exposure /

indeed, the sunlight doesn't hurt anymore / before it used to cast cold pearls
on hot slippery passion /

sizzled in delight; but there is no oil to tease now /

my heart has lost its lubrication /
over the wear and tear of her unmasked hands /

so she will slice me up / i am diced to imperfection /

just the way my closeted mother served me /
on a scruffy paper plate /

that's why i burn so easily and quickly / i was born a wrinkled ugly bloody wonder

and that's the way i'll die / damaged and curling under her heated glaze

i'm not afraid of the rain anymore / it washes away evidence /

of the melted-mascara dyed dribble and replaces it with

the will to carry on /

my skin has had it's drink but 

for god's sake /

come home before I lose my f*****g mind

Reviews

[cilla]

" i was not built to love / and love was never built to love me"

This is awesome ... all of it. It is raw and passionate and vulnerable. There is a score of edgy feelings packed into each line. And it is as the saying goes ... "deja vu all over again" ... as you have captured and portrayed a place that is all too familiar. In the words of Annie Lennox ... here comes the rain again ... and every woman knows this solitary place.

Your work is on a level of its own and you really continue to impress with each new entry. You have spoiled me with the quality and inventiveness of your work.

You rock, girl! Keep it coming!!!

[Riley]

You did an awesome job. I love reading your work because everything is so descriptive and I can feel the emotion being conveyed through your work.

[Baby Ricochet]

Love it.

[zainul]

Very lovely write.

[The Jay]

Sharp, direct, and dark. The holy trinity. Lol. Brilliant work!

[S. Michael Long]

seriously wicked.. this is some of the most poignant writing i have ever read.. Love it! -s

[Ninepointzero]

This is some cool s**t. I enjoy the flow... motion of the ocean.

[MoriartyMesa]

Sort of had that Black Swan sort of feel about it, not sure i can really put it into words.

[forevermore1218]

nicely written!!! The emotion you portrayed in this poem is so touching it reaches the bottom of soul and has it shed a tear. Love this work :)

Keep up the amazing progess