schizophrenia

This is the piece I will be performing on Oct 25 this year.

schizophrenia,
y u no let judgment pass naturally?

no, i'm done with meds piling me like a christchurch earthquake
under a building i thought i had control over

NO,
I just love it when people look at me like I got 3 dicks coming out the side of my head
when I respond to the voices

"kill yourself and the people around you"
not today, B*****S
don't fail to recollect the memories
that it is the people around me that help me to survive

you think I like this?
rage
paranoia
anxiety
meds
reverse empathy
depression
illusion
confusion climbing my heart like retarded parkour
it's a slippery slope but that don't stop the spiders from climbing back up the spout
you can't laugh when you're trying to get through
but you can smile when you cry


yeah! I want people to remember me as
a passionate, artistic, sick minded and even sometimes flooded girl;
forget the time-of-the-month stereotype
blood doesn't bother me none but
I've been caught red-handed doing bad things but who hasn't?
what, you wanna try and colour a rainbow that's already multicoloured?
you wanna snatch a crayon from a child's hand to form an image for yourself?
OBJECTION
labels are for soupcans not people born in sardine tins fighting to break out and realize
the definition of ambition is the notion of intuition
fight, break and find some sort of compensation
to find a place in this god forsaken hole and fill it with your passion.
i'm just a girl with annotations in my head but today, i will look to the ceiling
and thank the dislocation of my mind from mainstream
that i'm me and not a duplication.

Reviews

[Samantha Tamburello]

I can really hear your voice in this! It's so powerful, and moving!

[zainul]

Yes,you are not a duplication.
Original thought and amazing expression.
Love the whole poem yet my most favorite lines are:
"yeah! I want people to remember me as
a passionate, artistic, sick minded and even sometimes flooded girl;"
100/100

[Michael G.]

This is a very deep and thoughtful piece. I like the "quality" it has. You can hear it both whisper to the reader... and shout to them.
Where are you performing it? And, will it be recorded? (Personally, I would hope it is.)

[Pól]

Brilliant