View From My Hospital Bed

Every time I look into your eyes they break my heart
All I see I know I could never be
Beautiful and whole
Knowing nothing but love
You seem so pure
I am nothing but broken

In this bed I lie
Everything white
And that distinctive smell synonymous with dying
So much illness I can't help but cry
Amongst an ageing population left to their demise
Abandoned by loved ones
Their stories are reflections of mine

They've never stayed around for long...

Friends
My father, mother
Every single lover
But I find solace in your smile
In memories forged many years prior

I still remember days when the sun shone on us so bright
I didn't want the day to end
But it seemed to last mere seconds no matter what I tried

Those memories are fading
Fading with time
I wish I could lock them up inside
Keep them forever
In life and in death
But now and then I come out of my head
Forget about what was and remember what is instead

Stare at this photo
As the ink slowly fades
Looking at your once loving gaze

Your beauty is infinite
It shines like the stars
You're the light in the darkness
In the hopelessness of night
It surrounds me
Suffocates me
Yet keeps me alive
You're all I've ever wanted
You're all that's keeping me from dying

Maybe it's best if I just lie here in denial