Maybe I Was Better Off (With The Door Locked)

I get ready to walk out the door, and pick up my cell phone
This is your last chance to call and tell me to stay home
Got myself done up just right, checked the mirror one hundred times
You know I'll take whatever excuse you make,
Cuz I'm not the type to interrupt, I'll hear you out
And say 'Well I was looking forward'
Even though I know your lying when you agree

And if you want to claim temporary honesty
I hope the reason wasn't my feelings
(It's not like you ever cared before)
And if you want to claim temporary humanity
I hope it's a better cause then
To pay me back for all the time I lost
(On perpetually canceled dates)
With you

This is the last chance for my car to break down, yeah
I'm just a block or two away from your house, and I know
As soon as I see the front door (The front door)
I better be ready for some procrastination
Which spills over into cancellation
It's not like I didn't expect it, from you baby
We've done this how many times

And if you want to claim temporary honesty
I hope the reason wasn't my feelings
(It's not like you ever cared before)
And if you want to claim temporary humanity
I hope it's a better cause then
To pay me back for all the time I lost
(On perpetually canceled dates)
With you

On the way home, I'll pick up something strong
(I'll take you where ever you want)
And start drinking before I put my keys on the table
(But stop letting the thought)
It's not that I can't handle the truth
(Of being seen with me, end everything)
It's that I can't handle these thoughts of you
(Here is a toast to you)
On the way home, I'll pick up something strong
(I hope you end up like me)
And start drinking before I put my keys on the table
(Desperate and believing anything)
It's not that I can't handle the truth
(Here is a toast to you)
It's that I can't handle these thoughts of you
(I'm through)

Author's Note

Unmodified, unedit. Typed as it flows.

Reviews

[Prospero]

The feeling of ttotal despair comes through too clear and strong. If this is a real situation, I hope it is not with my sister :). In any case, it exudes passion and makes use of powerful imagery. However, the repetition of the 2nd stanza in the fourth is distracting. I assume this is an oversight. If so, it would help greatly if it is deleted. Very good flow.

[hey]

honest and true, i know how it is.
pretty solid, passionate.