Maybe, Maybe, Maybe

Maybe this is what i need
Even if it aint what i want
Cuz ive been of course with
A crashing into you

Maybe well both blow up
Or just all this other stuff
Surrounding us this
Space junk and old food

Maybe you were right
That i dont see the light
And i treat you all
How im not supposed to

And maybe this is right
Going off into the night
Away from you all and
Being off on my own

[i]In the dark glow of the moon, I sat down and said to myself:
Maybe, just maybe, the world didnt end so many hours ago.
And maybe I can fly. Maybe you can too.
Maybe theres a life somewhere after this. I guess ill have to find out.[/i]

Maybe these things are right
These monsters in my sight
They tell me that im
Not all i used to be

Maybe ill sleep tonight
Sleep all through the night
Or maybe youll toss and turn too

Maybe i dont know what to say
Cuz you remind me every day
Of all the things id say
Id have to go and do

Maybe i idolized
All the things you did right
Because i couldnt do them
Without your hand in mine

Maybe this is the way
To a better day
Or maybe im on a path
To my doom

[i]In the final hours before dawn i contemplated my demise:
Perhaps id die by my own hand like so many times planned
Or perhaps someone would be kind enough to come along
And put me out of this sustained misery that ive endured.[/i]

Someone call the cops
And turn out the lights
Maybe the way i did this
Isnt legally right

But its how my morals go
And how they move my toes
And my feet to the things
Ive decided to do

If this is the day
That i am to go away
And sleep forever in
Never ending gloom

Then please dont weep
Know that i am to keep
My journies
How they always were

Honest in my ways
And never in a daze
Ill appreciate every
Moment i get to do

The things i wanted
But could never have
Because i had my head
Too deep in the sand

[i]So i broke the form that i had been following all this time:
Constricting myself into it might have well drove me into the ground.
That wasnt what i needed, i was already so far down.
The spiral was starting to end, my plane was done in.[/i]

Maybe when i hit the ground
A miracle will make it have no sound
So you can all remember
My farewells be for the flight

A raging ball of fire in the night
The smoke holding me so tight
I couldnt breath but it was all
A final right

Of passage to the next
Thing before i rest
Maybe ill see you
Soon

Author's Note

Unmodified, typed as it flows.